I am sorry that I hurt my partner financially as a result of addiction both to gambling and alcohol. I am sorry I was lost in these things and are only now seeing very clearly about how I hid with diversions and closed my heart to people in my life

Hola querida hija, te escribo porque te quiero pedir perd?n por haberme puesto tan bravo el d?a de ayer. La angustia y frustraci?n que sent? fue grande cuando me dijiste que ibas para Chinandega y no te ibas a quedar al curso. Lo que un padre quiere es lo mejor para sus hijos, yo creo que te conviene tomar el curso ya que va a mejorar tu confianza para tomar el SAT lo. Acordarte que todo padre quiere que sus hijos sean felices, les deseo lo mejor. Sin embargo mi reacci?n no fue expresada sanamente por lo que te vuelvo a pedir perd?n. Tambi?n es importante que realices cuanto de tus conducta contribuyo a esta situaci?n, no es para justificarme pero me acuerdo que cuando ?bamos en el carro me dijiste que no ibas a ir a Chinandega porque tenias el curso, y despu?s cambiaste. Acordarte que Dios te ha creado una persona libre con la capacidad de tomar tus propias decisiones y responsabilizarte por estas decisiones. Como lo expreso Viktor Frankl quien estuvo en los campos de concentraci?n: They may have been few in number, but they offer sufficient proof that everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the last of the human freedoms ? to choose one?s attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one?s own way. ? Viktor Frankl Yo creo que en vos y te admiro. Pude ver como en Chinandega manejaste la situaci?n que viv?amos muy bien te apoyaste en la Virgen. Te graduaste con muy buenas notas, te hiciste de un grupo de amigos y amigas que hasta la fecha conservas, fuiste l?der al haber tomado la iniciativa de formar el grupo de Operaci?n Sonrisa, te felicito por haber sido nombrada Presidenta. Yo me siento orgulloso al ver c?mo te entregas al servicio por mejorar la calidad de vida de muchos ni?as y ni?os, estas llevando esperanza a personas que est?n sufriendo o que hubieran sufrido mucho si no se pueden re?r. Espero que Dios te ilumine en tus decisiones , y que Dios te bendiga. Te quiero mucho

I want to apologize for living a life of addiction to alcohol and never fully feeling my real feelings and listening to the people who cared about me. I want my husband and children to know how very sorry I am for starting a family and not fully understanding who I was mind, body and spirit. I will live my life everyday making amends to those I love by taking care of myself. My children were 3 and 6 when I stopped drinking. I am so greatful for my life.

Daddy, I want to apologize for not seeing the child in you that was simply seeking unconditional love. I did not know until after you were gone how difficult it had been for you growing up. I am sorry for not recognizing that your demons sprang from a longing to fill the emptiness you felt within. I am sorry for every hurtful thing I ever said to you. I am ashamed that some of them were spoken with intent. My intent was to shame you into changing your ways, but now I see that all I did was inflict more pain where it was not deserved. I am sorry that I could not find a way to save you from yourself. I am sorry that the love we did show you was enough. I wish that I had learned lessons of compassion earlier in life so that you could have been the recipient of the unconditional love I have learned to offer all that experience pain. I hope that you have found peace now. I still feel your love and guidance in my life, as I always did while you were here with me. I am sorry that I cannot feel your warm embrace or hear your bellowing boisterous voice in ringing in my ears. Your zeal for life lives on in your children, your voice is still there in my mind and I sense your gentle guidance in my spirit. I will love you unconditionally forever.

I'm so sorry my dear brother, that I couldn't save your mortal life. I'm sorry I wasn't there with you, as you left this world. I'm hoping you knew/know I'm always with you, and that helped your sudden and violent transition from physical body to the ether. I'm sorry I never moved to your location, so we could try setting up housekeeping together, as we talked about so many times. I'm sorry I judged you in life, and for the times I had no patience to listen to you. I'm sorry I wasn't there to witness your last 9 months, when your life improved exponentially on all levels. I'm sorry that your daughter is without her father, and our father is without his son. I'm sorry the adults in your life, charged with the responsibilities of keeping you safe, healthy,and nourished failed you so miserably. I'm sorry you hated yourself for so long. I'm sorry I have to miss your physical presence now, and that I'll never hear your voice again. Or see your artwork, or hear your music, or witness your ongoing healing.

I am sorry for my self-destructive habits, which has lead to anger and fear. I am sorry. Looking at mistakes in my life I wonder, do I even have some kind of intelligence...

I am sorry mom. For not being a good daughter, for not living a good life, for being a mentally ill drug addict. There is no one who loves me unconditionally. Even though you acted like you hated me I know somewhere deep down that is not true.

I apologize for always looking for distractions and running away from myself.

I apologize to myself for not listening to my heart and creating a life that is rooted in fear and now that it is more clear I cannot back out of certain lifelong commitments.

I am sorry to myself that I have let myself go and that I can be disrepectful to myself nad others. And that I can lose touch with reality and be hopeless.

I am sorry, mom, that I wasn't more understanding of what you endured, and for not seeing and understanding dad's role in your madness, so placing most of the blame on you. I'm sorry for not appreciating the love you gave me and showed me, for allowing myself to forget about that love because I was angry at you for the madness. I'm sorry I didn't even realize how much I loved you until I realized I was losing you.

I am sorry for not being willing to accept god in my life, and for so long not even knowing how to do so ... and how to begin. I am sorry to my self, for denying this part of love which is essentially part of me. I apologize to my self for this. And with my willingness, and love around me I can change this and allow god to love me, and to know god loves me, and to love my self.

I am very sorry for not having told my mother, "I love you". And for not being able to be more present for her, physically and emotionally, in the past ten years. She died on Saturday. I did not to visit her more often because I was selfish. And because I was not able to be calm and patient around her. I got extremely anxious every time I visit her and my family. Te quiero, Mami. Lo siento.

I'm sorry for hurting my ex financially and by not being honest with him when he gave me so much love and respect.

I'm sorry for not loving myself and for seeking love in the wrong ways.

I am sorry I did not call or write you to end our relationship. I apologize if this left you feeling uncertain or rejected. I could not find the courage within myself to communicate with you, so I did nothing. I regret my lack of action almost daily. You deserved a proper, final conclusion to our time together. I am so sorry.

I'm so deeply sorry for abandoning my two dogs. I left them at a business because I didn't know what else to do with them. I was too scared to take them to animal control services because I didn't have any money and I was afraid they would charge me to drop my dogs off. My heart ache's 15 years later for those two dogs souls. I am so sorry for abandoning them and I wish I could take it back. I will never abandon an animal again.

I'm sorry for taking money from a lost wallet and for not turning in the wallet.

I'm very sorry for being lost in my own emotions for so much of my daughter's young life and for not being in the present with her more.

I am sorry for not having more compassion for my sister in law's dysfunctional behavior, I took it personally and did not welcome her. In general, this is my callousness: I tend to protect myself against other people's misery flinging, clinging and blaming rather than stand there and let it roll off or trying to soften it with proactive understanding.