I apologize to my parents for not becoming what they envisioned for me. At 34, your beloved daughter is still single, living on my savings since no one seems to want to hire me. I wish I was a source of your happiness not worry. Please forgive me, the only consolation is that I think I am here to discover something deeper within me. I know you don't believe in that, but just know that despite all the uncertainty and instability in my life, I have the presence always with me. I hope one day you will understand. I am so so so sorry Mom and Dad, please forgive me for shattering all your dreams and expectations of me, I messed up big time, repeatedly, and now I want to make things work, but perhaps my time has passed. I want to live freely and deeply but doesn't look like god wants to find a job or find love or have a family. Please blame some on my karma not only me. Because I am a good person and I love everyone. Sorry. I hope this prayer reaches you hearts. I am going to buy a book called 1 year to live tomorrow and will see if I am meant to go beyond 1 year from Jan 14th, 2014. Love always Ondrea & Stephen - thank you for your service. God bless you.

I'm seeking compassion for all the self doubt and insecurity which causes me so much worry, fatigue, anxiety and confusion. May this coming year be filled with more self expression and gentleness toward myself and others.

A PRAYER FOR FORGIVENESS ?if I have harmed anyone in any way either knowingly or unknowingly through my own confusions I ask their forgiveness. If anyone has harmed me in any way either knowingly or unknowingly through their own confusions I forgive them. And if there is a situation I am not yet ready to forgive I forgive myself for that. For all the ways that I harm myself, negate, doubt, belittle myself, judge or be unkind to myself through my own confusions I forgive myself.

I apologize to KK for failing to listen to my intuition and pushing your care beyond what your body could bear. You were in such pain and your suffering was prolonged by my desire to heal you. My selfish need to keep you caused you more hurt. I am so sorry.

I apologize for leaving you with a large phone bill - that I have never repaid. You were so kind to offer me a home and a job taking care of your kids. You made me a member of your family. I am so ashamed of how treated your generosity and you.

I apologise to all whom i had not given forgiveness. To all those whom i held in ransom of feelings, thinking there was something that had been done to me and something that was an injustice...in my mind and heart. I have forgiveness of myself for this, and all that i had once considered as a hurt, I now let go. I am deeply sorry to those from whom i held this letting go of hurt. I know i was not hurt on purpose, or out of hatred or injustice. I know others do what they deem the thing to do, and i let go of any emotional attachment. I am deeply sorry for all this.

I apologize to my son. Your return into my life has made me see my unloving nature in places in my heart. I feel uncomfortable by the requests you make financially and feel extremely uncomfortable on standing my ground. Feeling my heart close off I I am not sure how to hold my boundaries and say what I mean. And mean what I say. So in this I ask that this dance of confusion stop. That we meet each other honestly from the heart, that I can love you just as you are. And that all the stories I have written on and about you will be given a new plot line, naviagted by my heart open to yours.

I am so sorry for feeling that it's up to me for my adult kids and step-kids to have a good Christmas. Both my husband's and my ex-spouses died this year, both at 64, so all four of our kids lost a parent since last Christmas, old traditions are out the window, who'll be where when has to be renegotiated and i'm feeling/acting uptight, making it even harder for my husband, who's dealing with his own feelings. Please forgive me for having such a hard time letting go. I acknowledge the sincerity of my wish that my part in it be kind, loving, and above all, lighthearted, yet I'm having trouble experiencing this, and am so sorry for allowing stupid unimportant considerations to cloud my enjoyment and even slop over on to others. I am sorry for lacking faith that my homeless son will enjoy his holiday, too. My wish for him to have sweetness in his life crowds out my faith in him sometimes, and I am truly sorry for that. Love to Ondrea and Stephen at this season and always.

I apologise first to my sweet precious self, who for years in trying to protect and care for, i inadvertedly caused suffering and harm. Through excessive work that eventually caused great harm to my body; through not listening to my own clarion call for help, for direction and love. I apologise for not resting and responding to this. deep inside i knew the way. i could have given this to myself, instead i searched through others, sought refuge in ways that were not the most positive. i apologise to my loving self. i also apologise to those who in my hurt, dismay, fear, anxiety and delirium i lashed out at in disappointment, frustration and despair. i apologise to my mother...my disappointment at not feeling seen and loved has caused me great anger and resentment. i have shielded myself, expressed my hurt but could relax and provide you with understanding. my poor mother, how isolated and in pain you must be. i apologise to my father for not being there as often as it may have helped. to show you, you were not alone. i apologise to my partner for my efforts to control and seek the love he may not be capable of providing. for saying hurtful things in an effort to wake him up. i do not wish to wake up others with pain anymore....for them to feel my pain. i apologise to the shopkeepers, telephone sales people and other apparent strangers who i treated harshly thinking they represented more of a world that could not hear, did not care and were not capable..... i tread softly, with care, gratitude and with a deep wish to spread love, peace joy and kindness in my steps from this day forth. x

I am sorry for the way I have treated myself, for being at war within rather than treating my own being with love, respect, kindness and compassion. I apologize to humanity for locking you out of my heart due to the trauma I have experienced in my life. I apologize for my cynical view and harsh and critical judgements of other human beings. I am truly sorry for shutting down on all the good beings in the world as a way of trying to avoid further pain. I apologize to the world for hiding away and withholding my love, my gifts, and talents. I humbly ask for the Divine to help me be healed and well. Please help me to be open and to return to love. Please help me to forgive those that have harmed me, intentionally and unintentionally. I offer the world forgiveness. I offer all beings forgiveness. I offer myself forgiveness. I forgive the Divine who I have blamed for so long for not intervening in the atrocities experienced in my life. I forgive you Divine Love and I yearn for your return in my life. Please help me to be open, to truly live again, to be at peace within my mind, heart and soul. Please help me to spread ripples of goodness, and kindness, tolerance and compassion, and to be free from fear, anger, bitterness, hatred and rage. May I be healed. May all beings be healed. May peace prevail.

I apologize for being so judgemental and greedy and righteous. I apologize for being so harsh to myself, not being able to forgive myself. I wish I could be kinder to myself and to other people. I feel ashamed. I apologize for not being able to take care of my needs and trying to manipulate other people instead.

My life has pretty much been a study in stupidity. I was constantly messing up by opening my mouth innappropriately and losing my temper or wanting my own way. I ask you God to forgive my foolishness and self -centeredness. I ask you my loved ones to forgive my being nasty and mean. To my dogs, cats and birds I ask for your forgiveness. I tried to do my best but I always ended up getting mad. I ask all my former work relationships to forgive me for being difficult. I ask my former girlfriends for their forgiveness. I ask forgiveness from all my friends and especially everone who has tried to help me. I ask forgiveness for all those entrusted to my care who I treated roughly and abused. I ask forgiveness for being a narcissistic person . I ask forgiveness from myself for myself. Please take this burden of guilt and shame from me!!

I apologize to you first my dear mother. For the times I got angry with you. For the resentment I held onto about past hurts and feeling unloved by you. I'm so sorry I didn't do more or say more at the end of your life. So many times I held back from putting my arms around you because it was something we didn't do. Forgive me for not being there when you died. My heart still aches for the you. I wish I wish I could turn back the clock.I apologize to my sister Jane, for not forgiving you when you asked for it. At the time I still hurt from all the bad things I felt you did to me. I found it hard to trust you again. Now I have made the wound even deeper. Forgive me Jenny my departed friend for letting you down in your time of need. I apologize to the dog I could have took in and gave a good life. I apologize to my ex my only true love for walking away too soon. Thanks for still being in my life even though we are no longer together. I apologize to everyone I could have loved and helped if I hadn't lost my way. I apologize to myself for causing myself needless suffering and having to learn the hard way.

I apologize for crossing boundaries... for assuming I know what is right and best. I apologize for judging you because I know that we are all just doing our best. I apologize for acting like the expert, like I'm better than you. I don't know what your life has been like... I don't know what it is like to be you... I don't know what it is like to live your life. I apologize for talking negatively about you. I apologize for not having a compassionate heart towards you. I apologize for not sending love your way. I recognize your humanness... my humanness. I recognize my own need for acceptance. I recognize my own need to make mistakes and not do everything right. I want you to be safe. I want the girls to be safe. I want to be safe. I apologize for not trusting the universe to provide in this situation. I apologize for trying to take control.

I apologize for living in fear, in guilt and worry. I apologize to you son for not being able to raise you. I apologize for not being perfect and not being better. I apologize to you parents, for not being able make you happy so that you have no arguments.

I apologize to you, my daughter, for the rage that was directed at you. I am so very sorry for losing my temper....yelling, screaming, and grabbing you by the hair. I realized at the time that I was wrong but felt that my anger was too large to control. I have lived with this guilt and grief for many years. I want you to understand how sorry I am. I hope that you can forgive me.

I apologize to myself for not managing my money in the best ways possible and for not knowing how to get professional help. I apologize for not always having the energy to pursue my own dreams and gifts, and not understanding that others would help me if i only asked. I apologize to myself for being ashamed of my faults. I apologize to myself for not realizing my limitations and thereby doing too much. And I apologize to those I have harmed without knowing it, when I don't treat myself as a precious being.

I apologize to my ex for leaving abruptly and with not sufficient explanation. I apologize for not saying my real reasons or for not even looking for them. I had to get away and there were more compassionate ways to do this. I apologize to my children for any harm this may have caused you. I also apologize to myself for all the ways I have not held myself as whole, good, and worthy of goodness and love. I know I came into this life expecting wholeness and love, and that I have been the one that has kept that from happening.

I apologize to my son for the moments I felt helpless in the face of his upsets or uncomfortable (for me) behavior, and then I behaved impatient or righteous instead of just feeling my helplessness. I apologize for trying to fix him or rescue or protect him, instead of letting him struggle and fail, so that he'd have more confidence now in himself. I apologize to myself for the guilt and responsibility I feel for his struggles, and I apologize to him for my belief that he should.... (fill n the blank).

I apologize for not being far more kind to myself. I also feel I have not taken the best care of myself recently. U apologize for not inviting my Guardian Angels forth more often. I give thanks for this forum to express myself.