I aopolize from the bottom of my heart for every single time I have ever caused hurt. I have always attempted honesty,and, as I've grown older, love, only love. And I look back and wonder, how could I have left so much debris of other's pain behind me.I am so so sorry and I only wish they could read this and understand my deep love underneath personality differences. I wish deep in my heart, to cause as little pain as possible on my journey through this world. My heart bleeds each and every time.

I apologize for always apologizing. For feeling unworthy and unloved. I apologize for not defending myself against trespassers. For what else could I have done? I apologize when I feel sorry I apologize when I feel angry I apologize when I feel I apologize Then.

I apologise to my son. I was not able to love you because I could not love myself.I could not see how beautiful and special you are and I did not see your pain when I divorced your father. I lived as I got taught by my parents- don't make a fuss. You are angry with me and I ask for your forgiveness. Please forgive me for your own sake-to live your life. I love you son, please forgive me.

To the parent with the autistic child.We all have anger and the definition of anger is to hurt the object of our anger. This is natural and painful,but important lessons for us all to learn since we all have anger.The Dalai Lama has anger and speaks of it. None of us our perfect-no such thing as perfect- PAY ATTENTION TO ALL ANGERS -THE SMALL ONES HELPS US LEARN HOW TO WORK WITH THE LARGE ANGERS-WATCH SENSATIONS WITHIN THE BODY AND SOFTEN INTO THEM SO, WE LEARN THE DEEP NATURE OF THIS STATE OF MIND THAT GETS US INTO TROUBLE. watching sensations within our bodies can give us clues to old holdings/pains and how we project them on others and how we can soften into these feelings and eventually not let them control us. Nothing is too good to be true but this all takes very hard work for the rest of our life and i promise you it works,but in you're time as YOU ARE THE PATH. love ondrea

I apologise for yet again projecting all my anger, hurt and frustration onto my husband and autistic son. I know they are hurting too. I am so sorry for railing against them and against the 'hardships' of my life. I punch the sky at some imagined vengeful God, whilst I know deep down I am furious with myself. To be human can be so hard. I feel heartbroken each time I lose it. I feel heartbroken each time I realise love is all around. I feel heartbroken each time I see the damage I have caused by lashing out. I feel heartbroken when I see my son's heartbreak at the damage he has caused by lashing out. And I know it is even harder for him since he cannot even speak his pain. I am so very sorry. Please forgive me for I know not what I do.

This evening watching the video tape, I well up with the emotion to see Ondrea and see Stephen> I nearly said every word when you spoke the " cookie," tale, remembered from workshops. Thank you. Offering a deep deep apology to the cat I had to put to sleep about one year ago because of abusive neighbors. In order to care for myself in the process and honor the cat, I had to put her to sleep with forgiveness at the helm. I am deeply sorry for this necessity and I forgive myself for making this necessary and difficult decision at the time. I forgive myself for speaking harshly with agitation when filled with agitation and frustration at parts of my life where I experience helplessness. Forgiving forgiving. How to take this deeply as a word and an action. To sit with this word. To really really feel it. What does it bring to the heart? I will sit with this and read other entries with gratitude because I KNOW we all need to know its okay to say this on behalf of our deep seated need. Thank you ever so much.

i apologize to myself for hanging on to hurt and hurting myself by hanging on. i forgive myself now, thank you

I apologize to myself for unconsciously regaining eleven pounds of the twenty-five I worked so hard to lose over a year's time and kept off for much longer. This showed a lack of respect for myself, a lack of respect for my own sincere efforts, reflects taking my health for granted, was passive aggressive towards my husband, and highlights an aspect of my character that wishes to be nondescript. I apologize to myself for my unconsciousness and insufficient gratitude for the gift of a healthy body. Please forgive me and embolden me to be happily and whholeheartedly responsible for myself in all areas of my physical, spiritual, and emotional life. Best wishes to Ondrea always.

I apologise to my youngest daughter that I didn't know how to love you as a child, that as an angry young adult I never realised you were grieving. I apologise that I found you too difficult to be around and withdrew from you hurting you even more. I apologise that in your demanding attention, grabbing all you could materially I didn't recognise your cries for love.

I apologise to my youngest daughter that I didn't know how to love you as a child, that as an angry young adult I never realised you were grieving. I apologise that I found you too difficult to be around and withdrew from you hurting you even more. I apologise that in your demanding attention, grabbing all you could materially I didn't recognise your cries for love.

I apologize to myself, my former lover and his wife for the affair that we had. When I was asked to participate I said yes and now it know that this relationship was not in the best interest of any of us. Even though his wife was not aware of the affair, I would like to say I am sorry for not respecting their commitment to one another. To my former lover, I would also like to say I am sorry for entering into this contract that ended up causing you so much pain. I apologize to myself for not honoring my heart.

I deeply apologize to my beloved former partner for not giving her what she wanted and needed, for not addressing the issues which prevented me from doing so, for being self-absorbed in return for her unbounded generosity. I must now live without her and send her lovingkindness every day. I pray that I've learned my lessons well, and until our souls find each other again, may I practice those lessons with all who cross my path.

I apologize to my mother for assuming that her killing herself when I was a toddler was an act of hatred, betrayal and abandonment -- and for hating her in return. In clear moments, I see that she loved me beyond bounds and probably chose my well-being over her own life. I apologize to everyone who has had to deal with the fallout of her decision, the many people I distrust and treat with anger rather than openheartedness. At those times, I do not see you. Please forgive me. I am just learning how to love.

I apologize to my partner, my daugther and to my unborn child for the pain I have caused by my unwillingness to bring another child or sibling for my daughter into the world. I apologize to myself for the pain I have caused myself about this. I apologize to others in my life who have given great gifts to me but due to my diconnectedness or lack of generousity I have failed express my appreciation of their kindness. I thank you (Stephen and Ondrea) for your words which I listened to on my mp3 player while I lay in bed receiving chemotherapy for my cancer that is now 6 years in remission. I apologize to myself for limiting the expresssion of my own life where I have been fearful of being vulnerable with others.

I apologize for having an angry verbal outburst at my sister-in-law's sister who was staying at my house for a few months while she was in school. I was angry because I thought she was using too much electricity by running the air conditioner while using a cover at night. This was over 25 years ago. I see my own self-rightousness and inability to communicate skillfully. I know this caused some mistrust between myself and my sis-in law (and brother) due to my outburst, and lack of processing.

When the mind is NOT our best advisor we need to focus on our sensations,only sensations,going as deep into them as is easy,NO PUSH,just a simple paying attention. SOFTEN SOFTEN SOFTEN,this is no easy task especially when our bodies are in high anxiety or the stress of every day life. THIS WORKS, BUT AS IN ALL PRACTICE WE MUST DO IT DAILY SO WE BUILD OUR INNER STRENGTH NO PRACTICE IS EASY ,BUT ALL PRACTICES WILL BRING US CLOSER TO OUR TRUE HEART- THE BELOVED TREASURE OURSELVES LOVE O&S

i apologize to myself for spending our whole life so far believing i am not good enough and thereby holding back life goals and squashing life out of my potential to serve and be in relationship. steven and ondrea, i apologise if i have not expressed enough to you about how your wisdom and compassion has touched my life. i am currently experiencing a crippling inability to settle my mind and be still or focus. i can't concentrate on one of your talks for more than ten minutes so i must listen, stop, do something else, come back and watch another 5 or ten minutes. my mental state is full of agitation, aversion and distraction. i don't know how to find my way back to my calm center - or the ocean state - without focus. there is a strong urge in my legs and lower back to run and run even though, due to a disability, i have never walked a day in my life. i don't know what i am running from but had to instinct to write you tonight as an attempt to run toward instead of away. i want to apologize for still looking to you for help when i am personally unable to offer you service in return.

At 63.5 years of age, I apologize for only recently starting to realize how very unimportant I am in other people's lives. I love my family so much, but they have their own experiences, revelations, and truths to know. My wish to share my own experiences, revelations and truths with them has stood in the way of my appreciation of them as persons, and of my respect for their personal journeys. I ask forgiveness for this, and ask for community and support in being present to my loved ones with no ego involvement. I love our Levines and deeply appreciate the opportunity to express myself in this forum.

I have to write this in German first: Ich bitte meine Kollegin um Verzeihung, die ich unabsichtlich sehr verletzt habe. Ich war zu unachtsam mit meinen Worten und habe mehr auf mich als auf sie geachtet. Das tut mir sehr leid. Now in English for Ondrea: I ask my colleague for forgiveness, whom I have deeply hurt unintentionally. I did not pay enough attention to my words because my attention was more on me than on her at that moment and I am very sorry for that.

For sabataoging and ultimately losing my relationship to anger and broken vows