Apologies

April 2, 2015 07:36 pm Compassion: 25   

I deeply regret the poor manner in which I dumped my toxic anger, frustration, and shame upon your dear heart, dear one. I sincerely apologize for working through my little girl wounds by using your physical being as a means to heal. The gifts you gave me by your willingness to try to love me I hold safely in my now open heart. I'm sorry for the harm I caused you then and now in the lingering silence of unfinished energy we share between us. If at all possible, please forgive me.

April 2, 2015 06:51 pm Compassion: 18   

i am sorry for being depressed my lovely boy when you were young and i did not play with you as much as you needed i love you so much my dearest child and i am sorry if my lacking in your early years has contributed to you not being able to find your way easily in life. i am glad you have such a beautiful partner. you are a beautiful enlightened gentle person and i wish i knew then what i know now. i wish i treasured you more and encouraged you more. May you dwell in your heart may you be healed may your heart flower may you be happy may you find peace

March 30, 2015 02:13 pm Compassion: 24   

Do I lie to myself, well knowing, that I can't live with a partner, that is smoking Cannabis sometimes? One part of me is so clear, the other part full of wishes and hopes. Do I escape from this reality? I try to be konsequent, but it seems to be not my way to find out, if this initially relationship is based on love or on deception. I will treasure myself and listen to the voice of my heart. I apologize to myself for all this doubts, wishes and self-consciousness.

March 25, 2015 07:54 pm Compassion: 21   

We all lie at times because of our fears or self image issues. WRITE THEM A LETTER SAYNG HOW SORRY YOU ARE WITH NO EXCUSES...SIMPLE SORRY AND WATCH YOU'RE MIND CLOSER,SO YOU DON'T STAY IN THIS PATTERN. DON'T BE SURPRISED THAT THIS IS A WELL CONDITIONED PATTERN THAT CAN BE BROKEN,BUT WILK TAKE SOME TIME AND EFFORT. INTENTIONS WILL DO THE WORK IF YOU ARE SINCERE. NO GHOSTS WILL BOTHER YOU,YOU'RE MIND MAY,BUT ALL IS FORGIVEN ON DEEPER LEVELS AS WE ARE ONLY HUMAN AND EVERYONE MAKES MISTAKES. LOVE O

March 23, 2015 04:24 pm Compassion: 19   

I am sorry, dear housemate, for eating your cheese and ice cream, then lying about having done so. Further, I fabricated another lie about being lactose intolerant so the finger of blame could turn elsewhere, away, away. Lying upon lying -- a pattern I thought would protect me. It turns out I have hemmed myself in with the shame and guilt and the lies of it all. How quickly my 'wrongness' mushroom clouds in my mind. Where to begin to make amends? For me, here. I hope to have the bravery to apologise to your face about this stuff one day. It seems so small, so insignificant, but my well-developed super-ego tears me up about it. In my fantasies I imagine the house beginning a witch-hunt for the Dairy Thief, inevitably 'finding out' it was me, and will vilify and hate me for it. I am so scared, sometimes. Thank you for this page, Ondrea and Stephen.

March 21, 2015 05:35 pm Compassion: 23   

When it comes to serve e work we all need to see this as "work on ourselves".Nothing for the person in need to do but "be".We leave them alone when it comes to our"point of view".If they ask and you have developed a deep level of trust you can offer advice,but only from "EXPERIENCE",not what we read in books or teachers feel us. It is our willingness to be the "fool" and do as much as we can from love,no judgements,no religious points of view,only our direct love. THIS IS THANKLESS WORK,REALLY NO ONE DESERVES A METAL,GREAT KARMA OR SOME FANTASY REWARD OF ENLIGHTENMENT. SERVICE IS TOUGHER THAN BEINGS THINK AND IT WILL TRIGGER ALL OUR CRAP AND ALL OUR BEAUTY. We will be insulated at times and loved as we have never felt.We will feel great disappointment,not enough,and this all strengthens us and heals,but this is a lifetime of work and still few are completely enlightened,but we come closer to our "true being"GRACE is ours,but we need to work hard on letting go of the judgements,fears,angers.This letting go doesn't mean supressing emotions,but a daily practice of prayer,meditation. SERVICE builds our strength,ability to heal.True service does with no rewards other than ones own heart growth and we all are on a path that is ours alone. We will feel lonely,useless,at times,but we need to keep going unless you find that this is not you're true work any longer.We can do service on many levels as this is a "point of view" not what we do and no expectations of gifts from beyond. I know some of you feel rejected,disliked,drained,but keep going and although you're heart will sometimes say you re to enough,you're heartfelt intention will carry you.Try mantra when working with patient so you stay calm and present.All states of mind keep changing, pay attention to sensations and thoughts. I KEEP YOU ALL IN MY HEART AND AS ONG AS I AM ALIVE WILL SEND YOU LOVE AND HEALING TREASURE YOURSELVES AND FORGIVE MY DYSLEXIC SPELLING AND POOR WRITING SKILLS LOVE TO ALL ondrea

March 13, 2015 06:30 pm Compassion: 34   

I apologize for not being honest with myself or with you. It hurt you and I am sorry. Please forgive me for not being more mature. I love you and miss you. Please forgive me. I love you.

March 13, 2015 05:39 pm Compassion: 29   

March 11th, 2015 I'm sorry I couldn't be a better mother to you; the mother you deserve. I'm sorry for all of the times I was too depressed to get out of bed and just play with you. Despite my inadequacies as a parent, you have turned out to be an exceptional, compassionate, kind, and generous young woman. I am so proud of you and so disappointed in myself. My struggle with depression continues and I hate that you continue to witness my decrease in living a functional life. I will miss you next year when you go off to continue your education. I hope and pray that some distance from me will bring you perspective and healing. I don't think i'm going to recover from this condition and you deserve to be protected. I love you.

March 13, 2015 05:37 pm Compassion: 22   

March 11th, 2015 I'm sorry I couldn't be a better mother to you; the mother you deserve. I'm sorry for all of the times I was too depressed to get out of bed and just play with you. Despite my inadequacies as a parent, you have turned out to be an exceptional, compassionate, kind, and generous young woman. I am so proud of you and so disappointed in myself. My struggle with depression continues and I hate that you continue to witness my decrease in living a functional life. I will miss you next year when you go off to continue your education. I hope and pray that some distance from me will bring you perspective and healing. I don't think i'm going to recover from this condition and you deserve to be protected. I love you.

March 7, 2015 05:34 pm Compassion: 42   

I wish to forgive myself for the unacceptance and anger I stored, all these long years,for being a woman. I forgive myself for thinking that it was lesser to be a woman. I forgive myself for thinking that it was a punishment to be a woman. I forgive myself for not understanding that to be a woman just is exactly as it is, and as it is meant to be. I forgive myself for fighting and resisting my nature which is beautiful,giving and loving. I forgive myself for thinking I was a separate entity and for denying my sensuality, believing that it was a curse. It feels amazing to feel grace and acceptance in simply being. Thank you!

March 7, 2015 05:29 pm Compassion: 20   

WHEN IT COMES TO RELATIONSHIP WE WIL HAVE STRUGGLES,AT TIMES. OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD IS MOST IMPORTANT AND NEEDS TO BE FIRST, SO OUR HEARTS HAVE THE CAPACITY TO BE OPEN ,TO ANOTHER BELOVED. WE NEED TO LEARN TO LOVE,FORGIVE OURSELVES AND OTHERS BEFORE MOST OF OURS HEARTS HAVE THE GROUND AND STRENGTH FOR TRUE RELATIONSHIP, TO GO TO DEEPER LEVELS OF BEING. THIS IS POSSIBLE BUT E ALSO NEED TO SERVE ON ANY LEVEL,AS THIS IS AN ATTITUDE,A WAY OF LOOKING AT LIFE. TREASURE OURSELVE IS ALSO SELF SERVICE LOVE O&S

March 7, 2015 02:44 pm Compassion: 21   

I'm sorry to my inner self for falling in love again, with the same man who broke my heart over 30 years ago. I couldn't cope when he didn't want me anymore when we were so young. My life was changed forever not because he didn't want me but because I didn't know what to do without him. When he came back into my life I thought I'd been so careful, but he found his way back into my heart anyway. I was vulnerable and he was so gentle. And now he's gone again and I am lost. I feel stupid and sad for allowing myself to hope for something that made my heart dance. I want to be strong and grown up, but I feel so sad and alone, and I don't know what to do to make my inner self feel whole. I'm sorry for being so lost.

March 3, 2015 03:28 pm Compassion: 26   

Many, many years ago, as a teenager, I was part of a group of mean girls who were very cruel to you in ballet class. I think you dropped the class because we made it so miserable for you. Now I am a grown person and I am doing a review of my life. I always remember you and wish that I could somehow apologize and ask your forgiveness. I know it was a long, long time ago, but I still feel so badly about it. I can still see you in my mind's eye. I send love and blessings your way and truly hope that you are happy and well.

February 26, 2015 03:24 pm Compassion: 30   

I wish I had the courage to ask for repair. It's hard to accept a difficult ending to such beautiful and healing experience. I don't understand what really happened and I'm sorry that I don't have the wisdom for this. Metta.

February 18, 2015 04:07 pm Compassion: 35   

I am deeply sorry for the harm, betrayal, dishonesty, hurt - knowingly and unknowingly I caused myself and my x-partner. I manipulated, ignored my co-dependent behavior, and enabled our relationship without opening an honest conversation about our slippery slope. I ask for his forgiveness, I, too receive self-forgiveness. I bow to him inwardly. I bow to all sentient beings.

February 14, 2015 02:11 pm Compassion: 39   

I'm sorry for not listening to my body, and constantly overeating food - particularly processed food. I'm sorry for doing this while knowing better.

February 10, 2015 01:10 pm Compassion: 38   

I instigated my own grief. I was so afraid of what would happen to me, that I caused it to happen in a more painful and harmful way than I could have imagined. I used peoples' emotions to see if I really mattered because I feel uninvited in the world. I am sorry and I didn't understand that I was abusing the relationships in my life as well as risking the most important thing I needed for myself, which is gone now. I am sorry that I didn't understand this until now and for what I did to bring this on. I am also sorry for the pain that it has caused other people and myself. May all beings be liberated and live with ease.

February 9, 2015 03:24 pm Compassion: 36   

I am truly sorry for being mean and vindictive in my words and actions with friends and lovers. I apologize to all those that I have judged verbally or mentally and closed my heart to you. Loving Kindness

February 8, 2015 06:34 pm Compassion: 35   

I am deeply sorry for having left two wonderful cats with my ex-husband when I left our marriage.

February 2, 2015 02:48 pm Compassion: 44   

I am sorry for my tendency to just drop people. I am sorry for all the hurt I have caused throughout my life with unanswered letters, unreciprocated invitations, and repeated incidents of rudeness in this area. I don't like being like this, so I avoid getting close to people in order not to disappoint them and myself. I am so sorry and send out love today for people I've treated badly.