WHEN WE CAN'T FORGIVE IT DOSEN'T MEAN WE ARE A TERRIBLE PERSON OR LACK HEART. THE ABILITY TO FORGIVE COMES FROM PRACTICE, DAILY PRACTICE IN FORGIVING START WITH SMALL HURTS AND FORGIVE THEM-DAY IN AND DAY OUT- FORGIVE ALL THE LITTLE THINGS THAT YOU FIND ANNOYING. THIS BUILDS YOU'RE FORGIVENESS MUSCLE AND OVER TIME YOU WILL FIND YOURSELF FORGIVING THE HEAVY HURTS. IT WORKS BUT THESE QUALITIES NEED TO BE BUILT UP OR THEY DON'T WORK WELL. ITS LIKE GOING INTO THE GYM AND PICKING UP THE 100LB WEIGHT AND YOU WOULD HURT YOURSELF,BUT IF YOU GO INTO THE GYM AND PICK UP THE 5LB WEIGHTS,YOU CAN DO IT AND OVER TIME PICK UP THE 100LB NOTHING IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE love O

I'm so grateful for the help to see things more clearly. I want to ask forgiveness for causing hurt. I didn't understand and I am so sorry. In whatever way, I am here to receive more clarity so that I can make it right and apologize. I think people don't know how much they mean to me. They don't have to love me back as much, prove themselves, be perfect, or do anything more to be loved by me. I'm very sorry. I think I broke trust I am sorry. Please forgive me. I know I can meet you in the place you need and so I will just be patient without expectation.

I should have known that what I did was so mean and hurtful. I didn't know why you were so angry with me. It is so late...I am so sorry. Forgive me for not seeing past my own feelings and needs. Forgive me for not knowing, not being willing to apologize.

Please forgive me for not knowing how to forgive. I'm holding so much anger, I always have. With each hurt, each abandonment, each betrayal - If I am not met with the wilingness to place unconditional love at the root of us and a willingness to communicate from a place of loving kindness, then I simply don't know how to feel forgiveness. I think it's because I don't have enough love in my every day life to absorb the pain. Either that or I'm just a terrible person. The inability to forgive is literally killing me.

I have overgeneralized that no one can look past my weight and love me...and certainly not for that reason. For this, I protect myself and make that judgment for people first. I am sorry for only seeing the image of people and thinking their lives are better and easier than mine. There are few who have genuinely wanted my time and attention and I ignore and reject them, underestimating their sincerity. I am sorry for dismissing them from my life.

I am sorry about the situation we have been in and your pain and fear. I am trying to let go and be in peace. I hope you feel secure and loved in your life. If there is worry, there is no need to be accusing, blaming or threatening toward you. I know you are doing everything to get through this. I'm sorry if my anger frightened you. I'm sorry for my suffering. May you always be safe from harm and be in peace.

I am sorry for any pain, anger or sorrow I ever have caused to any living being, including myself. May all beings be well and happy. Thank you.

I am sorry, dear body, that I ate so unconsciously and in a harmful way yesterday. I am sorry I picked up old addictive habits that have been dormant for years. I apologize for hurting you.

I am sorry that I ever felt the need to apologise for myself. God knows what she's doing. Thank you for reading, Ondrea.

I am sorry for how I have used my time. I am sorry for how I have ignored healthy routines. I am sorry for my inattention to eating that supports health and practice. I am sorry I have ignored self-care. I am sorry for how I have at times ignored spiritual practice, thinking it would offend my partner or bring on the anger of others. I am sorry for not slowing down, fearing I would be punished by others for not moving and acting quicker than I really could. I ask for help from the compassionate heart. I am sorry for the ways I have been stuck in pride and unwilling to ask for help.

If it were true that I was to be loved by you, it would be a miracle. I don't know how to believe in miracles and I have been trying to disprove it. I have been feeling like these are delusions I am having. If this is real, then all I want is to help you and take care of you. I want to calm your fears and soothe your pain. If there is any way to have you closer to me, then please forgive my difficulty in making it safe to be vulnerable. Even if it is to know you are nearby, but not forever gone I can begin to get my bearings. Otherwise, please try to understand and forgive why this is so confusing for me. I do love you.

I am so sorry I was not able to be honest with you about what I needed. It was hard for me and I have just felt shame about my needs. I love you so much. I have apologized and asked for forgiveness....I won't keep bothering you as it seems you are needing room to heal. I know some of my actions caused hurt....so many walls around my heart. I am changing and growing. Please forgive me. It is sad and hard to be without you..Be well and content. Please know you are so so loved by me.

WE LEARN TO BE LOVING, BY WATCHING HOW UNLOVING WE CAN BE TRY IT and YOU WILL SEE HOW MUCH MORE LOVING YOU CAN BE WITH THIS LEVEL OF ATTENTION

I am sorry that I feel dissappointed by people, I will practice selfless awareness to have courage and security in my own wisdom, enough to cool down my own fears, to see through our collective ignorance, and be in loving awareness more often for you, for me, for all beings. I am practicing. I am sorry we did not fully meet each other where we wanted to be. Yet perhaps we do? With love, with gratitude for this site, and for the teachings.

AT TIMES WE ALL FEEL LIKE IMPOSTERS OR FRAUDS,THIS IS THE MIND. WE HAVE NO SOILD CENTER EVERYTHING WE SAY OR DO FEELS LIKE IT IS FLOATING IN SPACE AND WE ARE BREATHING IN WE STOP THE WAR,BREATHING OUT WE MAKE PEACE LEARNING TO TREASURE OURSELVES IS A HARD WORK-KEEP TRYING-KEEP LOVING FOR NO REASON LOVE O

I am sorry I cannot trust myself to go in the direction of what I feel is right and therefore keep floating to wherever the currents takeme. I am sorry for not appreciating the life i live.i am sorry to my son whom I feel I cannot be a mother to. (and be there more often).

I am very sorry that I have this difficulty to understand what love is, how love is and how to give it without wanting anything back in return. I don't know exactly how to love and don't know if I have ever loved someone, even thought I had 2 marriages and 6 kids. I apologise for all this unlovingness toward others who I really care about. I apologise from the bottom of my heart and soul for all my wrong and bad deeds, my mistakes, everything I did or didn't do that hurt someone. I apologise for lying, for stealing, for abusing, for taking advantage of others. I am sorry I am envious of what others have or when they are happy and successful. I fake really well and people generally say I'm wonderful and kind. The truth is that maybe I am a horrible person. I am sorry, this hurts and makes me cry. Thank you for listening (reading).

I am sorry I didn't say Thank You and I Love You to my mother before she died.

I am sorry. I am sorry I got up that day. I made a mistake and it keeps coming back in my life. What I did wasn't enough and I was young and scared. I am sorry, and I would rather have suffered permanent injury or death than to keep living in punishment. I deserve to be fooled and abandoned now and I knew that I would never get away from this thing. The only thing that I ever wanted in the world is to matter. I keep making sacrifices or giving, hoping it will liberate me. I'm not happy or sure of anything. Hopefully those in the present have gotten what they needed from me, so they can be free. My forgiveness helps them feel better. I am sorry that whatever I do now is never enough to rectify the past. I don't know what else to do. I'm just sorry, all of the time.

I'm sorry that I don't know how to show love. I'm sorry that I don't know how to react when being shown love. I'm sorry that I don't know how to change, and that sometimes I feel I don't need to. I really do. I'm sorry that I flinch when I'm touched and get hurt so easily, that I build up walls no human could ever climb. I'm sorry I don't trust love. I'm sorry that I overreact when I feel threatened, even if others aren't intending to hurt me. I'm sorry that I don't know how to express how I feel in a healthy manner. I'm sorry I'm not a better listener, but claim to be. I'm sorry that sometimes I forget people aren't quite as empathetic as me. I'm sorry that despite my empathy, I have been the "other girl" and have also allowed myself to be unfaithful, and have screwed others over too many times to count. I'm sorry that I think everything's my fault, so I project that outwards and attract manipulative people. I'm sorry that I don't know how to say no and stick with it. I'm sorry that I lie so easily and often about dumb things, and I'm sorry that I regularly lie even to you. I'm sorry that every time I make a promise I break it. I'm sorry that I blame you for the deaths. It wasn't your fault, it couldn't have been, but even still you think so, however irrationally. I'm sorry I don't show you love. I'm sorry that I have to apologize to myself in the third person, because that's the only way it seems real. But I forgive you. I always will. And I will work better every day to treat you better and love you the way you should be loved.