I appreciate this site so much for the opportunity to send and ask for forgiveness and love in ways that are not possible. I have not been able to access a paid membership and contribute for your generosity. Thank you for the gift of making the forum accessible at this point and making this community available to support mercy and kindness for human connection.

I tried so hard to be there for you,to be a place of unconditional love for you because in your life you have so rarely received unconditional love and have so little ability to trust anyone. That lost innocent part of you was like my only child, I wanted so much to protect you. I forgot how fragile I was myself, and you hurt me so much.. I don't want to be angry with you because it blocks my love, but the rejection is so hard to take.. I lost my way, I got lost and I grieve the loss of myself, and the loss of you and the loss of our love. We barely talk now, still living in our house together,but I don't know how to talk with you. The ache of loss inside is so great.. sometimes I can feel it inside you also, both of us wanting to reconnect but being too afraid or having so little trust. Sometimes I feel as if I want to just die, fade out of existence because I have so much sadness. I feel as if the universe has stolen every piece of happiness I have, sometimes, and that is also stolen all of your happiness. I am so confused. You seem to lack any empathy and that cannot be your fault. I see the small frightened child inside you, it hurts that you seem unable to see the small frightened child inside me. In the silence and stillness of my own heart I offer you my unconditional love, and to myself also. I am truly sorry for any pain I have caused you and I ask you to forgive me. The years before suspicion and hostility came between us were the best years of my life.

I am sorry for being sassy. I am angry about feeling deprived of and separated from love. I miss my animals and their affection. I miss the closeness I once had. It is the only remedy for me. I am sorry for my confusion. Thank you to those who have shared their wounds and heartaches here. May you have peace and live with ease.

I apologize to my father for being short-tempered and preferring the relationship we have in my imagination than the one we have in reality. I apologize for the many ways that I try to change the beloveds in my life - including myself - into those perfect images, rather than easing into the reality and beauty of who we are in this moment. I apologize for all the countless moments I have been blind to and cut off from this beautiful planet and the goodness available to me each day. Thank you for the apology page!

To my daughter, who is in great pain emotionally, I am sorry for failing you. I tried to do the best I could. Your obvious hatred of me has been a pain I have born for years not knowing or understanding the source of your hatred. My prayers include thankfulness for your safety and complete healing.

I apologize to myself for being harshly self critical and believing that I'm not very talented. I apologize to myself for denying myself love because I was wounded by love a long time ago. I apologize to myself for not asking for more. I am sorry

I apologize to myself for not taking the time to reflect on the beauty of life I apologize to my children and husband for not being who they need when they need me

I'm so sorry my little girl for the suffering you are experiencing from your parents uncoupling. I'm sorry that we did not find ways to heal when we needed it the most and that now you are living in between worlds and feeling the confusion in that space. I pray that we can each support you from our highest selves and show up for you the best we can and that in seeing each of us healing you will learn from that as well. You are the dream come true and the best thing that has ever happened I think I can safely say for both your father and myself. I am sorry. Please forgive me. I love you. Thank you.

I apologise for failing in my own commitments. I am nearly 60 and for the first time in my life, after 2 teenage relationships, 23 years of unhappy marriage, 12 years of divorce, 3 wonderful children, 1 dead teenage son, and 2 relationships since, 6 years ago I chanced to meet, for the first and only time in my life, a true beloved. We instantly resonated with each other's hearts and carried each other through 5 years of deep healing whilst he almost died. On his recovery and regained strength I gently announced that we would, over the next few of months, cease meeting each other because he is a loving and commited married man and, whilst he was so ill, with not enough support, I wanted to be there for him, but in his wellness, we must walk our own paths and not continue our inappropriate closeness, even though we were always deeply respectful and rarely even so much as touched each other, still we are too profoundly and effortlessly close in heart and soul. BUT, now, 9 months on, I feel I cannot bear never to see him and I will visit him where I know he goes. I will see him, if only for 10 minutes, twice a year. I know he wants this too and I have tried to back off, in respect and love for his marriage but flesh is proving weaker than spirit and I am ashamed. Seeing him, if only for 10 minutes feels like a shot in the arm to keep me going. I have never known a love like this although I've always known it existed in the world, like with the Levines and a few others. I'm SORRY to the DIvine Beloved, the universe, all beings, those directly involved and to myself for being weak, selfish, and failing in adherance to my own moral principles and in my respect for his life partner, my sister in heart. I am changing the rules I made myself, now making it OK to see him for 10 minutes or so, twice a year, where I turn up unexpectedly, so he doesn't need to make any arrangements. He said, when we parted, that I may get a call in 20 years time and I was up for the 20 year separation but I am failing. My life is rich and full and still the isolation of knowing such deep trust and connection in sprit and not being able to meet it eye to eye even occasoinally is too acute. I wish to be a more sober minded person than I am turning out to be. I'm sorry I am not forgiving myself and sometimes I am even hating myself for this selfishness, neediness and greediness. I guess the apology is to all of you reading this and to all of those not reading this, I am a wretched person, not worthy of your love and respect. I'm sorry for my condition.

To my beloved partner, I am sorry I have been impatient and unloving with you. At times under the pressure of caretaking dad, I have seen you as the obstacle and have targeted you with my anger and frustration...even though you are my one true friend who knows me through and through and who loves me anyway. I love you, my beloved. May my heart be open to forgiving myself and may I try to keep myself open up to you and let these walls of Jericho tumble down, in the words of the beautiful joni mitchell. May I trust in our soul connection and learn to let go. Thank you for being my mate. My life is rich because of our intimacy. May I properly honor you, loved one.

Today, the first anniversary of your death, I deeply apologize for being so selfish as to cause you all the pain and suffering you were forced to endure until your departure from this plane of existence. So many times I tried to find the courage to let you go, to take you to the vet and compassionately say goodbye. But I could not. I was scared and alone and needed your unconditional love, because I had so little to give to myself. You became weaker and weaker with each passing month, losing weight, struggling to walk or climb the stairs in our multi-level home, or simply trying to breathe without significant effort. I did this to you. I made you suffer needlessly. And I am so deeply ashamed for my actions. I hope you can forgive me. I miss you like crazy. You're the best friend I've ever had, on two or four legs. Thank you for selecting me and the 20 year journey we traveled together.

this is my practice: to react (or no react) in the right way at the right time. I apologize to me and to all beings with and around me that Iam not always and under any circumstances be able to follow this promise I made to myself.But I try to do better and better. I try. And I apologize from the bottom of my heart.

When we have patients, we have given all our love and knowledge and they no longer respond to the tools we share, it may be time to let them go on to other counselors. It doesn't mean you failed,it means we aren't 100% caption Karma to the rescue and we can't help everyone,even Jesus said there will always be suffering in the world and it is up to us to do what we can and to have the self knowledge to know when to let go and know we never failed,it is our intention and love that plants the seeds of hope and healing. TREASURE OURSELVES LOVE ondrea

I want to apologize to my friend who feels that I have abandoned her. I know an adult can not abandon another adult, but her drug and alcohol use is something I can not be around. I have carried her for much of her adult life and had to withdraw after the last crazy incident. She is angry and sad and is now three weeks in recovery, but I am staying away. I feel selfish and unkind for this choice. I probably need to forgive myself too. I must have gotten something out of the enabling for all these years- maybe it made me feel good to be needed, maybe it gave me a sense of power - being her therapist- there must have been some payoff for me. Maybe it made me feel worthy- but anyway,I had to withdraw from her. I am afraid to walk back towards her and be a normal friend because I am afraid I will get sucked in. I imagine she will slip in her recovery and then we will be back where we were and I will once again need to run away from her.B- Im sorry, please forgive me, Thank you , I love you.

i want to apologize to my middle son Philip and my daughter Samantha for taking so long to build the strong father in me with God and Buddha behind me we will break through the emotional abuse they have suffer and put an end to parental alienation. that I have educated myself on as best that i can.I have nothing but love ,compassion and forgiveness for their mother,who is angry hurt and suffering

I am sorry for hurting you so much when you were loving and open. I?m in love with you and you?ve been a great man to be with. I love you. Meet me again in the vastness of being if you feel like it. love.

I did not understand how important it is to protect such a precious and fragile nature by being invulnerable. I apologize for threatening to take away my love and presence from others. I saw hurt coming and I wanted to protect myself too. It is really my commitment to those that I love to be there through it all, always, no matter what, just as they are still here for me. I will still be here and my arms are wide open. I just need to be shown the way. I am sorry that I need to know how to get back in touch with those that matter to me.

I'm sorry that I have given up. 60 years of practicing the original "you are not wanted." Of abuse and lack of care. Of profound heart openings gone to waste because I believed more in shame and blame. 25 years of therapy and every modality of healing. Moments of grace. But your pull down the rabbit hole is in my cells. And it's literally killing me. I'm sorry that I don't have what it takes not to let you win.

I apologize for not being able to face you. I could not say goodbye. I am ashamed of the way I look. I am afraid of being asked to leave and feeling embarrassed again. I have been working everyday with a big hole in my body and I hold back tears in conversations, in front of the computer, and on the bus. Forgiving seems easy to me. I think it is the healing and the unexplained that is hard to get through. I am sorry that I cannot see your pain and you cannot see mine.

I sincerely apologise for our/my species, and for all the harm, pain, destruction, devastation, extinctions we have caused, and continue to cause daily, to all the other beings with whom we share this planet. Please, please forgive me/us. Please. I love you, I'm sorry, please forgive me/us, thank you.