I am so sorry I believe I know who you should be. I love you in the place where you are. However I cannot agree to be together. I do not trust nor can trust under these conditions. With all my heart I will let you go to reach your highest good.

I apologize for not respecting other people, for gossiping, telling tales and taking delight in other people's suffering. I vow to completely stop. I apologize for all the 'running' I have done, leaving behind many wounded partners, children and friends. I apologize for being a complete phony and vow to live authentically from now on. Thank you for this opportunity Ondrea.

I send gratitude for all you have taught me, forgiveness for you wanting to control me and what I wanted to do - apologies for not making that clear, apologies if at my teenage and even beyond I pushed that and you away. May energy bring this message to your heart, and hold you in love and light.

I am sincerely sorry my friend. Guilt has been heavy within me for a very long while. One knows when they have erred- failed to come from their higher self and given in to the small needs that arise from fear, resentment, greed, and jealousy. I wish I had done better. I wish I had stayed silent. I wish I had stood up for you. I am sorry.

I apologize for the hurt I have caused you M by abandoning you after your son unexpectedly died. I did not have the capacity to meet your grief and my fear of the closeness and chaos of death. Even though I deliberated on this for a long long time and did this in the most loving way I knew, I still question my decision, feel guilty. Please know that although extremely difficult for me, I couldn't abandon myself also by not recognizing and speaking the truth. I am truly sorry that I felt I needed to abandon you to free myself.

I feel badly for the pain that A and B felt because of my relationship with C. I don't know how to apologize in person without causing more pain.

I am sorry that I rejected and couldn't handle the level of friendship you offered me. I wanted more of what I thought a Real friendship is. I see that I have done this to other people as well. It brought me a lot of pain to not accept that you couldn't or didn't want a closer friendship and could not really be there for me when I needed a friend . I hated that you only wanted to be work friends. I felt hurt a lot, abandoned a lot. I am sorry if I hurt you by not knowing how I felt at the time. I am sorry for hurting myself for being in friendships like this, that were for the most part superficial . I am learning about this pattern and will try not to hurt myself or others by choosing this kind of relationship without acknowledging what is really going on. Thank you for listening.

I am sorry if I have spoken out of line, offended, partaken in gossip or hurt you or your loved ones with my thoughtless words. I am learning to do better and I hope you will accept my apology and remain a cherished friend in my life.

My dear friend, I am so sorry I left you so abruptly and without explanation. Over the years when I have thought of you and remembered our friendship I regret that I turned away from you in pain and anger. I hope that wherever you are you are happy and surrounded by love. Namaste.

To my beautiful friend, Since you left a few weeks ago, I feel humbled by the reflections I have made about my behavior and lack of empathy and compassion for your feelings. Intensity, avoidance and ignorance became habits that I now regret. Our relationship suffered and so has my self-respect. To pause, to relax and hold the space for you with love and affection, is what I wish I could do now, it is what you (we) deserve. I took things personally, believing it was all about "me." I am so sorry. Forgive me for trying to change, fix, and control you. You are unique and perfect exactly as you are. One day on the Way, may our Souls meet again with love and compassion.

Dearest Stephen and Ondrea, thank you for all you have given to me, to us, all these years and that I have not adequately been grateful for. Tonight as I learn of Stephen's passing and have listened to couch talk 35, I take it all in as you transmit it from your heart. I apologize for not having been more grateful. Thank you endlessly....

I am sorry Ana for the way I treated you at the end of our relationship. I hope you are happy now. love and blessing to you. Jimi

For all these many years, I didn't understand why you were so hurtful to me. I just thought I was a victim of your greed and contempt. But the other day it came to me that long ago I never welcomed you and shared my space in our family. I am so sorry for my ignorance. I am so sorry for the pain I carried and the pain I placed on myself and on you. I forgive myself for not knowing the truth and I forgive you. I set us both free from entanglement and responsibility, hopefully to laugh again now that the lesson has been learned. Peace.

Dearest Ones, please please please forgive me for my continued self abuse in my thoughts and actions, untruths, not valuing myself and thus not valuing you. I want to learn to treasure myself and you. I love you so very very much, I long to be healed with you, T

My dear dear body, I am so sorry to have abused you for so many years with addictions and neglect. Instead of dealing with all the terrible childhood trauma, I took the pain and rage and despair out on you in torrents of self neglect and self hatred. You are struggling under the weight of so much neglect now, and I am suffering with you. I'm so very very sorry. Please forgive me. I want to learn to care for you, be kind to you, and attend to you in compassionate and appropriate ways. I'm so sorry. Please help me. I want to find joy and comfort in you.

I apologize for yelling at and scaring our sweet toddler. I created so much pain in her that she now struggles as a young adult with mental illness. It is difficult for me to forgive myself for the suffering I still see in her everyday, no matter how much help we have gotten for her, myself, and our family. I live in fear of the future for her. I am reminded daily of what I did and feel helpless. I had unhealed repressed trauma. I am deeply sorry to you dear daughter. I will try to forgive myself. I also see that Stephen has died and my heart goes out to you Ondrea.

I apologise to my sister. I needed attention and love from my parents, I was scared to ask for it incase I would be abandoned by them like they abandoned each other. So I took advantage of being bigger than her and pushed her to be intimate with me in inappropriate ways though I'm grateful that we stopped before it went too serious and My supra consciousness guided me to completely nullify myself when I didn't know how to stop being so abusive and take myself out of the possibility to hurt others. I'm amazed I have survived that complete nullification. It gave me cancer but I survived that too. I know if I don't take active occupancy of my body I could be consumed by cancer again but this whole experience has given me a knowledge that I can survive anything. And a desire to never be stuck again with the feeling that being alone is worse than being abused or abusing others. That feeling can only come from an attachment to the physical relational world we share where we say it's definitely more dangerous to not be included, I.e. To die than it is to be abusive or be abused. How do we know? How do I know? So I'm going to test this belief, I'm going to "die". Mum, fuck you, you tried your best but it was far from what I deserved. I love myself regardless of you and I have a new family that I want to be with instead. Love anyway your son

I am sorry for being cruel, for having so much judgment, for never stopping my quest of "perfection" in status, material things, none of which was important, but was the veneer overlaying my inadequacy. let me be compassionate and honor things that are true and worthy!

Dad, I am sorry that I will not come talk with you about our relationship. For many years I believed that you had sexually abused me in my childhood, and that I had repressed those memories for my childhood and young adulthood. At the time that felt I had recovered memories of abuse and I accused you of molesting me, I believed it was true. Years later, I recognize that memory and our stories are not always reliable. I do not know exactly what happened to me as a child, and I suspect that you didn't do what I accused you of doing. I'm sorry for my part in the rift between us, and sorry that I'm not strong enough today to let you have your own response if we were to speak. I don't trust that you could forgive me, and I'm not strong enough to verbalize my forgiveness of you directly to you. I hope that you aren't holding onto this life hoping to have this conversation with me, and that you will be able to pass gently whenever you are ready to do so. I have never felt you should/would/could be condemned to hell (I don't believe there's such a place) and it causes me deep regret that you worry that's what will happen to you. I wish you well.

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