Friends,The love you are sending my way keeps me going.I am grateful for the support.I live alone on my mt and at this point i am simply breathing in and out and huge "don't know mind",as i sit i just cry for all of us, that have lost loves and have broken hearts. Life is tender and tough and all we can do is love and forgive. lov drea

My husband: I am sorry for not wanting to touch you anymore. I am sorry for not being able to let myself trust you anymore. I am sorry for saying things that make you doubt yourself and feel bad about yourself. I am sorry for not taking care of our relationship. I am sorry that I can't seem to be done with my feelings of anger and hurt.

I am sorry you fell in love with me and that I can't love you back. I am sorry I let you feel exposed during our journey together. I am sorry I can't be what you want me to be. Please set me free and let yourself be happy again.

To you my life long friend, I am sorry for not being able to use more skillful means in my endeavor to shield you from further insecurity. I am so very sorry that you feel so heart broken and have shut me out of your life. In my mind, I needed to risk just this in an attempt to soften your engagements with those whom you live amongst. Since we no longer share a binding, I am hopeful that you have found peace and healing. I will always love you.

What is an apology? Where do I feel my grief? How to move with my truth and forgive because of not being in denial of my experience, no pushing down my feelings. To speak with a friend who is repeating and repeating her limitations with acting unconsciously twoards our friendship--but being unconscious about them with no regard for how it affects me. Forgetting what she says. Acting from compulsive means.... Finally came to an end point with supporting her to hear my truth as a gift to her. Leaving the door open for friendship, but moving into not being this way for my own well being... trying to be open hearted and clear. THE self destructive thoughts towards myself can rest from the lineage of pushing away my truth and trying to be there for someone while not being in real reciprocity and thoughtfulness --- --I suppose this is not for an apology but for the gift to whom? To my friend for speaking my truth. For compassion. and for the effort to open the doorway for more truth and power of happiness. May there be patience in my heart for myself. May the poverty I live with insofar as money rise and leave!

I am sorry love, that I didn't hug you more, tell you how beautiful you are, and show you over and over how amazing you are and just much you meant to me. I apologize for my hardness, my insensitivity, and my crude indifferences. How could I be so dense, so unloving, so careless? I wish I could explain it away as some kind of ignorance, but love, I cannot. I am just so sorry and wish I had done much better. I will try to do better. I will do better!

I don't understand myself and the cruelty I have done. I didn't know who I was and where the monster inside came from. I didn't know it was there. When I have done cruelty, I have been torn in half - one half dying inside and heart broken desperately crying to the other half to love, the other half savage and consumed with hopelessness. Neither half was able to reach to the other to reconcile in peace. How can I ask for forgiveness when I don't know who I am and if that numb cold part can be transformed to repair the damage I did? The damage was done and I can't go back in time to make up to the precious beings I hurt and lay my head down before them, bowing to them in deep reverence. Perhaps it is right that I will live with the pain as a reminder. In this way, pain is a teacher. Forgiveness for me is to accept and live with consequences. Please forgive me for sharing this for I mean no harm in doing so. I only need to lay out before my heart what has happened in hopes that I can go forward with sensitivity and compassion for all others. I ask God to protect, nurture, comfort and glorify all whom I have harmed since I did not. Maybe God will heal me too. Thank you.

I'm sorry for being a jerk.

I apologize for things said that were so stupid I can't believe it/they were said. I apologize to LM, l.m., my father, Rose, s.t Mary, for being a thief, liar parents house, St $, motorcycle 300, I apologize to me for killing off my dreams of musician.

I am sorry body for pushing so hard and when I stopped listening so many times. I ignored your wisdom and messages in order to achieve goals and not to let others down. You have taught me so much through your very difficult teachings of chronic fatigue syndrome, and I am sorry for the resentment I harboured for so long against them. I harboured guilt, anger, and blame (the list could go on!) directed at you, and it was me vs. you for so long. I did not understand the learning that had to take place at the time, in order to accept and open my arms to you. I love you body unconditionally as is, and have learned to be more loving by seeing how unloving I had been for so long. Opening to the body's teachings of compassion, forgiveness, and kindness could not have been experienced in a better way. It is the teaching of chronic fatigue syndrome that has allowed me to be more present with patients who are in pain, and make me a more conscious doctor.

More than ten years yars ago a friend gave me one of Stephens books. I read and put it away. Although I several times unsed the apologies-page,I never had contact to Stephen´s teachings. Everyting conntected to him was far away (literally I do live in Europe). And than, during a winter-night this January I took the book "a year to live" from the bookshelf and began to read. To study. I recomended the book to friends, they recomended it to their friends. As I´m getting old I´m sure that Stephen´s teachings, words, books will always with me. And I´m so very grateful for this. Today, March 13th 2016 I heard about Stephens death. I apologize. I whish I could take the matter of living and dying earlier in my life as serious and with an open heart as I am able to do it now. Stephen Levine, you helped me to open my heart, to understand and love.

I am sorry for being a snake as a mother.I had no feelings or cared what my boys were going through.I left you and did not care.I did not see your loneliness,your sadness.I did not care.I judged your father and said bad things to you about him.I did not care.I was cold,selfish,mean...I am sorry,please forgive me.I love you

I am sorry that I was so fixated on my need to heal my nephew's drug addiction, that I acted in hurtful ways. I ignored my husband, my son, and my own self. I spent money we did not have without asking my husband's permission. I was so unskilled, so co-dependent, so focused on my nephew's every move that I could not even see my dysfunction. I am so sorry that I held out my banner of 'family love' and 'true altruistic caring for another" so strongly that it blinded me to truth about my own needs and motivations. I wanted to be more loving, more evolved, more generous, more kind than I truly was. I know this is true, because I threw my nephew out of the house abruptly and believed he stole from me when he did not. I am sorry I meddled, dragged my brother and his wife into my I-know-what-is-best mind. I judged them, and the entire family as not helping enough. I am sorry I wanted love so badly that I hurt my nephew and his parents. I am sorry I was dishonest and caused so much harm to myself and others.

Dearest Ondrea, When I heard that Stephen had passed on I felt so deeply for you and for the world. I stood a long time facing the sunshine, standing in the white frost, eyes closed, shedding gentle tears, joining in spirit, heart to heart to heart. We who know loss know something of your heart now and we are with you, holding you tenderly. xxx

Dear young one, I am sorry that you had to see something that really was never meant for your eyes as an infant. I am sorry that you were not able to find a place of safety at home. I am sorry that over the years, you have moved from one relationship to another and the grief you feel from your divorce. I am sorry you had to make the hard choices of letting go in marriage and friendships. Most of all I am sorry that I wasn't able to protect you from the pain you have been suffering. I love you.

My dearest and only son. I deeply apologise for not knowing how to be a relaxed and gentle mother. I worried, yelled, judged and confused , when all you ever wanted was for me to relax. Your anger as a young man is hurting your relationships over and over. I never understood you. I look back and see how I thwarted your freedom to be as you were. I was ignorant , afraid and so so very unskilled. I am sorry that now we seem to have a rift between us. You expect judgmnent and criticism, expectations and lectures. I am sorry I cannot have the chance over to hold your little hand and really see and hear you with my heart. I know that underneath your anger and addiction your heart longs for this. I apologize my dear one, please hear this with your deepest spiritual heart how I love you, how I wish only for your sense of belonging and of knowing our love for you. With tears of sorrow, I try again to release us both from this pattern of pain. I will always love you my son.

I am sorry for the conflict. Thank you for giving me that last sentence. And how you've cared for us since. Please forgive me in all ways. Always yours,

To my dear children, I am sorry.( For my unconsciousness when you were little, for anything that has caused you to feel hurt at any time, for my lack of patience or compassion at any time.) Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you. Mum who loves you to the Moon and back

Dear Teacher. I am so sorry for all of the ways I've overreacted and pushed you away. I wish that I had been able to control the extent to which my past permeated our Love and studies. I know that this is all a part of my spiritual evolution but I do miss our times together. There still exists such irrational darkness, jealousy, shame, fear that have not subsided though lessened. But there is also the light of freedom, humility, empowerment, and hope. I am learning to live in that radiance as much as possible, and to move my life forward for the sake of the Self. OM Sahana Vavatu, Sahanau Bhunaktu, Saha Viryam Karavavahai, Tejasvi Navaditamastu Ma Vidvishavahai, OM Shantih Shantih Shantihi. Ram Ram.

My dear love, I am so sorry for all the unkind things I have said behind your back. I have stopped doing this. I am sorry for all the unkind things we have said to each other. I love you and always will. It's time for us to split, but may we find joy in life separately and together with our child.