I am so sorry that I have been so hard on you (myself) and have not allowed you to make mistakes but instead have expected perfection out of you. I am also so sorry that I have held you responsible for other people's feelings and have blamed you for their actions. How could you ever be responsible for another? I am so sorry that I have had you carry guilt or shame with you that was not yours to carry or that if it was that it was not forgiven quickly and easily. I realize doing so has squelched your happiness. I am so sorry that I have not listened to you when you needed to be heard but instead had you silence your voice and hold back your tears and healing. I realize this was not ever what I wanted for you nor what you deserved. I am here now and I embrace all of who you are. I am here to listen, to hold you, to love you in all of your expressions and to encourage your growth. I am so very proud of you for holding on and never giving up. I am inspired by you as well. Thank you for teaching me how to open my heart and to love, and as you know I am still learning...the difference is that now I am turning towards you and saying, let's learn together and I love you.

I'm compelled to apologize to myself (body and mind) for all the abuse I've rained down on you in the past many years. Between the complete and utter lack of self confidence/self care to the bulimia to the alcohol abuse and all the rest I apologize. Life long are the effects of having a cold, distant mother as a child. You're perpetually unworthy. I forgave her years ago, why can't I forgive myself? After our teacher did one of Stephen's guided meditations this evening at sangha I had an epiphany. It's time I loved and cared for myself, as I do for so many others. This guided meditation will become part of my daily practice (ordered the book right after sangha) and I will try to pass it on to anyone who will listen. Thank you, Stephen. I hope you're in peace. And Ondrea I wish I could take on some of your pain, lighten the weight of your grief. Thanks

Although I try to understand that one can not keep pleasant feelings forever, that bad feelings like nice feelings are part of beeing human I very often run into the trap of praying for comfortable times instead of praying for the capacity dealing with difficult situations. And I am sorry for this. Really sorry. Because my fear and negativity make heavy situations even darker.

when anyone dies we can connect with them, if we aren't too rational. no matter what you think you did wrong or not enough love or forgiveness given to you're loved one, it can be corrected. You take a photo of your loved one,beloved friend and speak to the photo saying all you wished you had said and keep this up daily.It dosent take a lot of time,but it is your intention that helps the most.After a period of time(different for each of us) you will hear the a response in your mind.It will be in their tone or the way they usually spoke and the person will let you know all is well. trust what you hear,if it is from them, but slightly different as it must come through you're mind,to you're heart. TRY IT AND SEE FOR YOURSELF-cant hurt love O

I am so sorry mom that I left you alone during some very stressful events - when you were alone in the hospital, when you came back from the hospital to assisted living and were in shock, and I am most sorry that I didn't stay with you longer the night before you died. I know now I could not open my heart wide enough to take in your pain and fear. I am so sorry I never got to tell you this before you died. I'm so very sorry I was not there to hold your hand before you died. I love you so much.

I am sorry for not replying to your letter asking for help. I was young and unable to help at the time. I think about you and hope some kind soul did help you.

everything we do is for "SELF RESPECT" keeping our core values. when we love and respect ourselves ,we build courage,forgiveness and the strength to move on,when life seems impossible. This builds inner strength and a deeper compassion for all beings Treasure ourselves first, so we have capacity to love others as deeply as possible LOVE IS THE BRIDGE ,WITH EVERY ACTION O

I am sorry for being superior and righteous when I am upset. I try to be understanding and forgiving as much as I have capacity in the moment. I am working on sitting with regret, anxiety, pain and anger. I am working on changing my narratives. I am working on taking responsibility rather than being a victim. I get tired, drained and lonely. I am sorry. My values are to remain faithful to a loving spirituality.

I am sorry for disappointing you and failing you and making you feel that you are not ok. I was busy in my life and made too little time to learn how wonderful and bright and sensitive you are and to accept you completely until it was too late and you had already moved away. You are my son. I have and always will love you forever. Like the book we used to read. Forever.

I apologize for not being your champion throughout your life. I have let you down time after time, always seeking the easy way out, the escape from discomfort, doubt, and fear. And fear and doubt is what we have both felt for so long…so long. I am sorry for that…you deserved better. If nothing else, in whatever short time I have, please know that I love you. In fact, love has always been all around you…and me.

Love to you Ondrea. I'm thinking of you and sending love. Thank you so much for your and Stephen's teachings. I'm so very sad that he has passed on and I only knew him through a book. Thank you for bringing so much love, beauty, and vulnerability to this hard world. Many many blessings to you Ondrea

I am sorry that my gestures and words really continued to confuse you and make you think I had feelings that I didn't. I was vague and ambiguous without realizing it. It brings up all the things about being loveable and worthy and I have a hard time remembering what this feels like for you. I wish I had asked you what was best for you because you lost what I promised you wouldn't lose. I hope you are okay and can forgive.

Dear myself, I am sorry for doubting myself worth. I should've made sober choices, I failed myself.

Dear father, I apologize for never trying to build a bridge to you. I know you loved me and you felt very shy and guilty because I always protected my mother knowing her suffering. During your marriage you always cheated on her - that made me hateful and I only feel love for you now, long, long time after you have gone. And I do remember your human qualities and I am able to see both sides mothers ans yours and understand. Father, dear father you have to know your daughter loves you deeply.

WE ALL FAIL AT TIMES AND IT ISN'T WISDOM THAT PICKS US UP AND TRIES ALL OVER AGAIN,IT IS LOVE. USE YOU'RE OWN SPECIAL LOVE, TO REGAIN, WHAT YOU FEEL YOU LOST,TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY AND TRY AGAIN TO SEND LOVE AND FORGIVNESS TO YOURSELF AND EVERYONE, IF YOU'RE HEART IS CLOSED AND JUDGEMENT IS AN ISSUE, SEND LOVE AND SAY YOUR SORRY,IN YOUR HEART. I PROMISE YOU IT WORKS,BUT THESE CHANGES TAKE INTENTION AND TIME, SO SEND YOURSELF LOVE AND FORGIVE YOURSELF OVER AND OVER AND IN TIME, YOU WILL BELIEVE. TREASURE OURSELVES LOVE DREA

APOLOGIES IT IS NEVER TOO LATE TO SAY SORRY YOU CAN WRITE A LETTER,NEVER SEEING ANYONE YOU CAN WRITE A LETTER AND THROW IT AWAY IT IS YOU'RE INTENTION THAT IS MEANINGFUL AND IT IS YOU'RE HEART THAT WILL HEAL,IN TIME love drea

I am truly sorry for exploiting emotionally vulnerable and traumatized people in my care. I lied and manipulated my power and no one ever knew what I did. It lives in the back of my mind and the result of that lives with the people I hurt. I minimized it to myself while I continued to benefit. There is a bottomless well of forgiveness from those people who carry the invisible injury of my behavior. I had my own trauma and I put it on them to pardon me for it. I never had to apologize personally and I can’t do it now, which has caused even more harm, so I am sorry.

I'm sorry to my friend from many years ago for leaving you without explanation. I ask your forgiveness for my cowardice in not being honest. I'm sorry to my husband for reacting badly to everything he said to me when we were young. I'm sorry for hurting my children by fighting in front of them. I'm sorry for being a bad role model in that way. I'm sorry to my grandchildren for fighting with their mother in front of them. I'm sorry for anyone I have ever judged or been unkind to in any way. I surrender to God my forgiveness of myself and ask to be merciful to myself as I have been to others.

Develop "SELF LOVE" AND "SELF FORGIVENESS" and this will lead to love from others. Once you love and forgive yourself deeply,love will come in time and when it comes to family they are often the slowest, to respond, because so many emotions, that were deeply personal and often suppressed. Once we become more loving and our hearts are more open ,people are drawn to us.Of course we must go where heartfull humans hang out. you can't change anyone,but YOU AND YOU CAN CHANGE YOU..NOT YOUR PERSONALITY,BUT YOU'RE HEART! TREASURE YOURSELVES LOVE O

I freely give my ears and heart to fully understand what is needed from me to repair the hurt I have caused in order to be back in the hearts of those I love. If commitment were wanted, I would do it. If forgiveness were wanted, I would give it. If moving away, changing jobs, taking care of them were needed I would do it. Help me mostly to accept that nothing has been asked of me and to accept what has been left without anger and bitterness. I apologize for rejecting clear reality and believing what I wanted. Help me heal and keep living toward awakening.