WORD FOR THE DAY Hold on to what is good, even if it is a handful of earth. Hold on to what you believe, even if it is a tree which stands by itself. Hold on to what you must do, even if it is a long way from here. Hold on to life, even when it is easier letting go. Hold on to my hand, even when I have gone away from you. PUEBLO BLESSING VISIT GRATEFULNESS.ORG FORWARD THIS EMAIL TO A FRIEND Copyright © 2016 A Network for Grateful Living, All rights reserved. unsubscribe from this list update subscription preferences

Dearest Scott: I am sorry for robbing you of death on your terms. Since you didn't want to admit you were dying and I knew, I could only handle this at 36 in the way I did. I isolated you from your kids, your family - thinking selfishly that I wanted to be with you more and knew what was best for you. I know not at 61 that I could not know better for you or for anyone else. I am deeply sorry for any harms I caused you. the kids or your family or my own family or others. All my love to you. May you rest in peace knowing you are always remembered and never forgotten. You are so very loved and I remember you every day in my heart and soul.Love your forever Char

I wonder if you think I can’t forgive you for what it is that is troubling for me to let go of. I understand you were angry and hurt and sad when I reacted and took it out on you. I really thought we could figure it out at some point. I could forgive you for all that stuff that happened. I am sorry that there is the last part that I can’t let go of. I can’t just say, be happy without me. I can’t say I forgive you for leaving me with such a hole in my life without you. I am sorry that I yet can’t forgive you for walking out after fixing so much in me, for being so much of what I needed and not knowing how important that is for me. It isn’t better for me this way. No one else knows what is best for me but me. And I should be able to forgive that but I am not there and I am sorry. I do know what made me a better person, happier, freer, and better for the world. It was your love and heart. There is no replacement for that. I mean, I will get over it, but I am angry right now, for you taking it from me and having no opportunity to get it back. I am sorry that I can’t be unselfishly wishing you the best. I am sorry that I am not all that sorry about things right now.

Dear Kelly I apologize for failing you at the time of your death. I was your community nurse and had been with you through the ups and downs, mostly downs, as you endured the end stages of AIDS and as you tried to care for your nephew. I can't explain or understand why I neglected to do the simple actions that would have made your passing more comfortable and dignified. The truth is I did not, though I was skilled and experienced in exactly this type of situation. Because of my neglect you likely died in more suffering than would have been the case if I had acted appropriately. I have spent decades shaming and blaming myself over this. Through sharing this story with other health professionals, I was able to separate my sincere regret from the self-hate and shame that had become part of my inner landscape. We all make mistakes, some of them very grave, like this one. But I did not intend to hurt you. I am sorry. Malachy

Dear John- I am enormously grateful to have known you and enjoyed being close to you for a while so long ago. Thank you for that. I write to say I have lived with guilt ever since I was unable to continue being close because my own struggles due to my history and dysfunction amplified my poor self image. You were kind to me, you loved me and after a point I was unable to reciprocate. Please feel my gratitude and sincere hope that your life has been a full and happy one, with the love you truly deserve. My life has turned out better than I could have imagined and I'm grateful my winding path has took me here. I am working to see all the water that has passed in the stream of life as necessary to take us here to a place where we can all be comfortable with ourselves and our history. Blessings, Mary

I am deeply sorry that I have returned to self abuse. I know no excuse exits. I seek compassion.

Dear Rene I can no longer bear not being able to tell you what is that important to me. You will not let me contact you anymore. Meanwhile, so many weeks have passed. I am no longer sure, whether I can still hope to talk with you about all that. I apologize for not having spoken with you sooner and in personal. That simply was immature and cowardly. Me blaming you caught you by total surprise. And I do apologize for what I said about us and your friends. I was the one who was afraid, because some of them knew our colleagues. You have always respected my fears; you could not know things had changed. Your friends are all very warm-hearted, each one of them. I always felt very comfortable. To show you respect, I therefore immediately withdrew, as they have been your friends for years. I know I have made a big mistake at a time chances for us could not have been any better. There is no excuse for that. I am so sorry. Love, Annett

My heart is in pain for the hurt I caused you I pray I will be able to forgive myself the sadness is always there, I really want to let it go it is in the past and I just cannot, as your life is a mirror held up to me where I see the pain I caused. Please forgive me

What car accident...When...? Thinking of you and practice...and Stephen calling "I'm here...come find me."

Friends I am doing as well as anyone can be doing without their heart mate.After so many years of 24/7 living alone is sad and,how could it be any other way? I thank goodness for practice as this is when it really helps to see clearly at the illusions, we all share. I am slowly finding my way,but the car accident has made life slower and healing a long process,but workable. I am planting a garden,listening to the wind and watching white clouds and blue sky. I am still looking at rescues for a older dog and a puppy,for love. LOVE TO EVERYONE TREASURE OURSELVES drea

Ondrea...let us know...if not too much to ask...how you are doing.

sometimes, we dislike someone,because of past issues in the family or life. If we take a closer look ,we may see that they represent, a part of ourselves, that we judge or dislike and it has nothing to do with them. If we pay close attention ,to mind states and body sensations, we can get insight into our needs or our judgements or projections. the judging mind does not know the difference between us and them, pay attention closely and we will often see it is our closed hearts, that cant see clearly and once the heart softens, we see life from love and not fear. Fear blocks seeing the present clearly ,as does all heavy states of mind,so watch fear as this is a "key" to awakening. love O

I am sorry that I have spent my life trying to distinguish myself from my brother. My brother has a learning disability, I got myself a Ph.D. My brother was bullied by boys at school, and by grown men at his work as a factory cleaner. I practice Karate and am constantly vigilant of my physical safety. My brother's home is messy, mine immaculate. My brother has no intimate relationship; my husband and I have been together happilly for 28 years. My brother lives 3 doors down from my mother's house, I live in another country. why do I hate my brother so much? Why is the thought of being anything like him so frightening? My earliest memories are of resentment towards him when my parents made me responsible for him. I was a year older but charged with the role of mother and father since they didnt have the patience for him. Why do I see him as the perpetrator of my lost childhood and not them? Why did I chase their miserly love and approval, when my brothers love was free and plentyful ? Why do I hate my brother so much?

I AM SORRY FOR ANY AND ALL SCREW UPS AND ASK YOUR FORGIVENESS.

I'm sorry that I picked such a bad time to be sensitive from this tough situation. I stomped all over your beautiful gift that I did love and I didn't know that It was yours. I was hoping that it was, but I am sorry and that hurts. My wounds got triggered at the same time. I am sorry.

I just read that stephen died in January... I started reading in 1978...I am now almost 60 myself...not that I started a strong medtation practice ever..but I have pain for my nostalgia...thank you stephen, ram dass, ondrea They gave me hope...and truth

I am sorry for my harsh words to you my father and mother and I know that both of you are on the path to spiritual recovery and that life is very hard for you and that you're both victims yourselves and I also hope that as a family we can heal from the trauma I hope in my heart and soul to both of you

I’m sorry I miss your birthdays. I’m sorry that shame keeps us apart. I am sorry that the establishments that have harmed us, also keep us from helping each other heal.

Hi Dad, It has been nice to reconnect with you again, in the spaciousness of this soul, heart and spirit place. I do miss you since you passed away 10 years ago. I am sorry for rejecting you and withdrawing my love from you when I was younger. I am sorry I was not more available to you as a daughter, and I am sorry for judging you. I hold you in my heart now, as I am learning to hold myself in my heart. We are all imperfect, and there is always love there. Even silence is a form of love. Thank you for being available to me now, it is a gift I cherish.

I am so sorry for my behaviors that have hurt my wife and everyone connected to us. I am ashamed of myself for my behaviors and my ignorance. I am deeply sorry for what I have done and the hurt I have caused. I need to forgive myself and I pray that my wife and others can forgive me.