I am so sorry beloved mother that I was not a better daughter to you during your life and am filled with sorrow that I did not support you in a more loving way during your passing.
In a new light, with an awakened heart for the first time I apologize to you my dear daughter after 25 years almost. I apologize that I was not a good mother. I apologize that I didn't know what does it mean to be a mother. I am sorry that I was scared to hold you when you were a new born and didn't know how to breast feed you. I apologize that I had to leave you in daycare when you were only three months to go back to work. I am sorry that I was missing you but didn't want to show how much I love you, I apologize for hiding my emotions so you become detached so you don't miss me. I am sorry for being so stupid to teach you that a strong woman is a woman who has no emotion. I apologize my leaving your father when you were only ten if you felt I am leaving you. I apologize for not being able to show you, it is not you that I leave behind, I apologize that I kept my emotion to myself so much so you thought I am better off without you. I apologize that in last twelve years I have not succeeded to reach your heart. I apologize that I cried in hidden but kept showing a strong image so you grow strong. I apologize for not being there when you graduated from high school, when you graduated from university. I apologize in tears that I am able to go on living a life while there is no day that i don't think about you. I am sorry if you got a wrong lesson that, it is possible to be a mother and live without your child. I am sorry baby, I am sorry. I miss you and wish that my words somehow travel and reach your heart and that in your heart you forgive me and come back to my arms. I have missed you for too long, too much
As the new year just began and as a new start in my life, I need to apologize to all the sentient beings on this planet May we all live in peace and love.
I am sorry, Aidan, for not being there emotionally for you in your first 11 years. I am sorry I was not able to be the mother that you needed. I will be here for you from now on and do the best I can. I love you.
Forgive me Jean for walking out on you all those years ago. I deeply pray that you will find the peace in your heart. My loving thoughts are with you.
Please forgive me H and J my dearest son for interfering in your relationship. I am so sorry for not supporting you enough, for not understanding you enough, for not loving you enough. Please forgive me God.
I apologize to my mother, the universe and all sentient beings, seen and unseen, that I have limited understanding, fears and unskillfulness that I can only offer limited support to my mother who is now crossing the portal of death. Please forgive me for all of the resentment, anger, fear and unskillfulness with which I related to her during this life. She is now in pain, lonely, vulnerable. She is delicate and as a baby, translucent as she sheds her links to this life. Dear God, please let me learn what I was to learn through my time with her. Please let me give her all that is needed. Please let her feel loved, whole and at peace. Dear God, hold and comfort her in your arms forever and may we realize our true nature, love of all beings. Thank you for hearing my plea.
To the person I have hurt. I know I said some things that have hurt you. I know that you would deny it. It is an aspect of your job to have people say these things to you. But, just as we are hurt, you must be the adult in the exchange. I admit I was wrong to say what I did the way I did. But you seemed too involved in your job to hear what I said. And, I was hurt by what I am going through. I am sorry and I only hope that somehow you can forget and your heart will be healed. I am hurt for you because I was cruel. You are younger than I am, perhaps more mature in many ways. But we are human and hurt will always turn us into children. Forgive me.
I'm sorry you may be dying and I can't offer any support. The last time we spoke I was bereft about our daughter's diagnosis of a brain tumor and you just yelled at me. Since the drinking goes on, I just don't see contacting you as an option. Our oldest is so mentally tortured and I blame you for letting her be raped when she was only 12, and then becoming pregnant with your roommate when she was but 16. You have wrought such pain with your vengeful angry being, I hope you can be at peace now and I pray that our oldest does not completely crumble to pieces in the process. I cannot believe she is left to manage you going. Or not. . She can't even string a complete sentence together since she told me you were dying. I wish it could be different, because I kept my vows to you and I meant it when I said till death do is part, but I'm sorry I just can't be there to say goodbye.
Dear God, I am sorry I am such a horrible human. I don't listen to you. I don't seek you out. I only talk to you occasionally, when I remember. Please take care of my fur baby. She is sick but she is yours. You gave her to me to care for her and I don't feel I am doing a good job. If I give her the medicine, she feels violated, if I don't I am allowing her to feel worse. God, help her forgive me. God, forgive me for being imperfect.
Dear Mom, I'm sorry that I have created this distance between us - perhaps you have not even noticed. I am sorry that I can't speak with you without feeling diminished - feeling as if I am unable to express joy and excitement for all that is alive. I am sorry that I now hold myself back with a certain amount of numbness. I am sorry that I blame you for this. May love shine through and all that needs forgiveness is forgiven - swiftly.
To my ex partner, who I still live with and whose younger brother was killed in a tragic road accident 3 days ago. From my raw and broken heart I am sorry for the distance and mistrust that now separate us. May I have the grace to accept this situation as it is and to let the barriers between us dissolve so that at least I could hold your hand and let you feel how much love and care I still have for you. We are like two frightened children and now, when you need me the most I am terrified and you are terrified of bridging the gulf of silence that has grown between us.
friends, letting you know I am still here and doing the apology page,with delight and love in my heart. Life moves along and I am starting to feel a new direction, for my teachings.I am not Stephen and i don't have his great gift of speech,that he honed over decades,as a poetry writer. I am a "energy" teacher,and with Stephen,by my side, we had what we thought of as "Our perfect balance" and some of you felt me and some couldn't, as you got to feel the energy,can't "think the energy". teachers with word wisdom are awesome and I choose the greatest teacher in this world. Teachers come in many forms,wisdoms,and heart depth,so we must choose carefully who we want to learn,as most teachers aren't enlightened and if they say they are,I'm would back up and check your wallet.This is a state of 'NON DUALITY". I will ask Gizmo guys if they want to do a little film for the sight,so I can explain,as u all know I am profoundly dyslexic,so words aren't my strength......energy is my strength. DO YOU KNOW YOUR STRENGTHS? Use them for, the better of humankind and you will heal,in the deepest ways. TREASURE OURSELVES-LOVE O
I am sorry I betrayed you and for denying everything. It is too hard to recognize your wounds because I am so wounded myself. I feel like it would break me to really hear how I hurt you, someone I really loved. I know you want to be heard and need a true apology. I am sorry I cannot do this. If I am never able to do this, I hope that you are okay. If someday I can, I hope you are able to receive me and forgive me both for hurting the deepest parts of you, for leaving you alone with it, and for not being able to repair it with you. I did not have the capacity to do this because of my own deep hurts and aches and I cannot let myself see this because I cannot take it right now. I did not really want to kick you out of my heart…I am sorry. It was the only thing I knew how to do. I am so sorry, I wish for you to be healed one day and I hope that you can forgive me even if I cannot help. I really cared about you and was afraid of losing you. I wasn’t able to say that and I acted out instead and could not take care of you. I am sorry that I cannot say this to you now. I love you.
I am so very sorry that as a very young mother of two lovely infant sons that I smacked them very hard several times . I'm so sorry, I don't understand why I was so, so angry. I am not trying to make excuses, I just don't understand. They were lovely little boys. I trust this process will help them now, and me also
I am sorry I couldn't understand and support the father of my children in his confusion around being assertive. He carries deep wounds from his childhood and is passive aggressive when he doesn't get his way, but he doesn't explain or communicate how he wants it. I asked him to move out and he misses living with the children terribly. I became very ill living with him. I am sorry. Its unfortunate that in this life I am not his friend but an ex-partner. I wish him well. And I am sorry it didn't work out.
I forgive myself for the places I visited that hurt my very core. I forgive all those who have hurt me. I forgive my husband for his mindlessness and his self inflicted wounds. I forgive myself for not seeing his pain and loss. I forgive my mother fr not protecting me. I forgive my brother for hurting me. I forgive my father for his neglect. I forgive ya self for judging my family. I forgive.
My dearly beloved husband, please forgive me for leaving you. You were right. I have lived many years with regret. You never failed me.
I am sorry I violated my roommates privacy by snooping on his computer while he was out of the house. I am looking at this behavior, how/where it began and what I need to do STOP this behavior - by finding out what I needed (a sense of safety regarding his financial situation regarding what he needed from me) and how I could get it in a respectful way. I am committed to stopping this behavior and respecting myself and my roommate. P.S. For as long as I can remember, I have snooped through other people's things. FOr various reasons, curiosity, revenge, "self protection". I can see how my main concern - not getting caught - has stepped over the root of this - that I feel entitled to violate others privacy.
I love you Dad. I miss you. I'm sorry, please forgive me. Thank you. I forgive you. I love you.