I apologize for losing my beautiful self as I prefer and pay attention to other external happenings. I apologize for not responding to myself more. I apologize for not taking the care I know I am capable of. I apologize for cutting down my joy significantly so that I can fit in to this world. I apologize for not being able to believe that I am made solely of love.

I apologize to my childhood-self, for all the hate, lack of self-love and the doubt. I apologize to my parents, for the times I may have hurt them with my words, thoughts and deeds. I apologize to my friends, for all the times that I've judged, gossiped, envied or ignored them. I apologize to my Master, for all the self-doubt, fear, laziness and rigidity which I had in the past, in spite of his repeated attempts to guide and help me. I apologize to all the children of the world, for my looking upon having children as responsibilities and hurdles to my path or spiritual growth. I apologize to Spirit, for all the times where I've failed to give my best or not been true to my self. I apologize to life, for not meeting it with love, trust,joy and enthusiasm many times. Thank you,for this space.

I apologize to myself for being so afraid and believing I am not good enough. I apologize to me for being so afraid to fail that I decide I am a failure in advance because for some reason that seems safer. I apologize to my friends and co-workers and family for all the times I talk about the fear. I apologize to God for treating myself with mean-ness and without respect and faith.

I am sorry that I forget the truth of our being and that I pre-judge you and condemn you for "mistakes". I am sorry that I close my heart when I get afraid. I am sorry that your invitations for closeness scare me and make me want to run away. There you have it. So human. Love and thank you for the opportunity to post this apology.

I apologize to anyone whom I have treated in a demeaning way. Please forgive me. I was brought up by parents who didn't know how to receive or share love but in this way, so for me to express my love for them was only possible by becoming like them. I now love with my heart and forgive my past.

I apologize to my wife for my selfishness and lack of love. I apologize for not respecting her decision to leave me, for pressuring her to stay due to my own fears and needs instead of respecting and valuing her needs. I apologize for not honouring my vows to love her, no matter what. I apologize for not letting go in love. I apologize for my unkind words, actions and thoughts. I ask for God's help to love her by letting go and wising her happiness.

I apologise to myself for neglecting the person that I am. For not recognising my own worthiness to give and receive love. For allowing others to dominate, manipulate and intimidate me. I apologise for my negligence and I love you

I apologise to myself for believing that i am weak and cannot take decisions and for being so scared. I now make a call to stand for myself and to love all. Though I donot know how to love, I m sure love will show me the way.

I am sorry for the recent pain I caused my friend, Maureen. I was attempting to heal the pain from an incident that happened over 12 years ago. In my human fraility I made matters worse. I love maureen very much and am so grateful that she was and is a part of my life. I cherish our friendship and will continue to communicate to bring healing to both of us.

I am sorry for not showing love enough. I love my parents so much. When it surfeaces it is overwhelming and scary I am sorry for the state of conciousness and the mistakes thanks again

I am sorry for selling myself short afer the last time I posted here and short in general. I am sorry for the wasted time and mistakes. that effected other people. I am sorry for the lack of faith. I am sorry for the cynical mistakes. I am sorry to my parents for being a failure to them and to myself. I am sorry for the put downs. Generally I believe my real character is better than that. I am sorry especially for the put downs. I am sorry for the lack of love and ego. I am sorry for creatin gproblems for myself and others. I am sorry for the state of concioussness and lack of faith I have been living in for 4 years. I am sorry, may I be able to relax and let go

I am sorry, Mom and Dad, that I was insensitive to your feelings. I'm sorry that I disappeared for long periods of time. I apologize for the times I didn't treat you well. I miss you and wish I could tell you these things in person. I hope that you knew that I loved you even when I acted like a jerk. I hope that wherever you are in your journey you are well and happy. I only wish you the best and want to thank you for all that you gave to me.

I am so very sorry for not being able to handle my hurt and, in turn, hurting those I care about most. All i ever want to do is to bring something good into peoples lives. I fear that some of those I have cared about feel otherwise. I am truly sorry x

I am sorry to myself for my self-existence for the past for years.

I am sorry for my fear in accepting your love, for being so quick to run away and I'm sorry for not taking the best care of myself which hurts us both. I am sorry for handling things unskillfully and now I think I will not get you back. I am scared. I wish you peace and happiness and I wish the same for myself and my hope is that moment by moment I can be less afraid.

I am sorry to myself. I am sorry that I am unable to open my heart enough to my own pain in order to see it. I am sorry that I always put myself down and compare myself to others. I am sorry that I am so scared. I am sorry that, when given the opportunity to love, I retreat and hide and disconnect. I am sorry that I am always looking for escape. I am sorry that I don't believe in myself. I am sorry that, despite all of this self doubt, I try to make myself seem superior to others. I am sorry that I am so confused.

I am sorry that I am unable to love you the way you love me. I wish I could. I am sorry that I am scared to talk to you and tell you the truth about my thoughts and feelings about our marriage. I'm sorry that I never told you the truth that I feel we should never have gotten married. I do not feel that we have common ground on most things in life. I do not feel a relationship can survive like this. I have told you but you don't believe me. You believe otherwise. And that's ok, you have a right to your opinion but so do I. And I do not feel accepted by you. I feel judged and therefore cannot open myself fully to you. I never could. Ever. Then I found someone I could. Someone whom I have a super strong connection. One that I cannot ever imagine giving up. My mind keeps telling me that what I am doing is wrong and that I cannot ever have this relationship but I cannot stop myself, no that is not correct. I won't stop myself. I am NOT sorry I am having an affair but I am sorry that I do not feel sorry that I am having an affair.

I apologize to you my dear daughter for not being able to manage three little girls when one of you was disabled and required so much of my time and attemtion that I was completely saturated to the point of being unable to even touch you. I am so soo so sorry that I did not realize you had been raped when you came back from that weekend in California with your father. I apologize for seeing your pain and outrage as something to be controlled and managed. I am sorry for not realizing that you had been victimized again and again when you ran away, turned to a life of prostitution. I am sorry I forced you into an abortion of my first grandchild. I bless you for the grandson you gave me and how sober you were when you were pregnant. I will live my life, in honor of the loss of you, and teaching families to support and love and see their children, instead of trying to control and manage them. Our tragedy will led to healing, I promise.

I am sorry for being so afraid to love. I have longed for a life companion all of my adult life yet I've never been able to stay present and care for myself when the pain or the fear of loss or abandonment arises. Instead, I have complained or accused or run away and by doing so I've pushed you away, causing the love we began together to be lost. I'm sorry I've ended up not only breaking your heart but my own heart over and over and over again. I'm sorry that I was so unable to show my vulnerability until now. I'm sorry that it's taken me so many, many years to begin to understand how and why I been unable to stay present and trust. I wish I could be more faithful that I could truly heal this distrustful heart. I'm sorry that I've spent so many years not treasuring myself enough to speak about my fear, my pain and my needs.

I am sorry for not being able to forgive, for holding and building grudges and not being able to let them go. Letting them fester and poison things for years. I am sorry for not loving enough, and then I want to add that I am sorry too for judging myself in that way. I want to begin by holding myself in my own heart, forgiving and holding myself. Thank you.