I apologize for using our time together to criticize you for your actions. You didn't deserve to feel badly and I could have chosen to express the truth in love. These are the mistakes one makes in youth, but it undoubtedly framed your perception of yourself. And for that I am sorry.

I apologize for taking my anger out on you. I was unhappy and afraid of what was happening right under my nose. But still I refused to leave or ask what and who you really were. Had I followed my truth when I met you at the door, I never would have answered it. But those are the lessons learned, the path not taken, and in the end the grace of God. I am sorry.

I am sorry that I chose to not bring you into the world. I didn't think that I would ever have to make that choice, but I did. I am sorry.

4 years ago my husband betrayed me and we divorced, I have not been able to forgive him for all the emotional abuse and manipulation and pain that I felt and still feel. I am so angry at him and yet I know the purity of his heart, he is just unhealthy, he is not a bad person. I love his soul...I want to forgive him. I want to forgive myself for turning the hatred and anger that I feel towards myself. I don't want to carry these feelings around with me any more.....so I love you I forgive you I love myself I forgive myself

I apologize to my sister who has taken her life, for only being able to do so much, and for harboring hatred for your actions. I apologize to myself for abandoning myself over and over again to the needs of others. I understand that I did this for what I thought was survival needs, but it cost me so much precious time of my life.

I am so sorry that I failed to support you when you needed me, when I was so depressed. I am especially sorry that I continued a friendship with you after my hospice work with you. My responsibility to you was to keep the professional boundaries, but we liked each other so much that I made an exception. You suffered because of that, since I am not as reliable in my personal life as I am professionally. To have caused you suffering goes against all my hopes of helping in my work, and I am very sorry. Thank you, Ondrea.

I am sorry for the disconnections within my family, my four brothers and one sister. I am sorry for judging each of them in ways that foster the disconnection. I am sorry for the thwarted love.

I am sorry for being an angry, controlling, rageful mother. I am sorry for reacting to my husband's flightiness by becoming more angry, controlling, and rageful. I am sorry for blaming my husband. I am sorry for disappearing behind the computer for your entire childhoods (so far). I am sorry for abandoning myself, my breath, and my children. I am sorry for not changing my life adequately so that the anger will dissipate. I am sorry for trying to control so much because I am so terribly afraid and ashamed and guilty about so many things. I am sorry to have been so utterly hard on myself and on all of you. I am terribly sorry.

Where to begin? I am sorry for allowing others to define my worthiness. Sorry for failing to love and treasure my unique crystalline self. I'm still learning. Sorry its taking a while. Sorry for being mad that it takes a while.

I apologize. My heart is rarely open and I hold onto past hurts. It is difficult for me to forgive. I apologize to those I hurt and offend because I hurt and offend myself. Specifically, I apologize to my foot. I am having a 4th surgery tomorrow on my poor foot, for what began as a broken bone and twisted ankle. I offer love and compassion for its pain - the pain we all share. Though blessed with excellent health, my incision opened following surgery on June 12, and tomorrow, I am back to have it washed and irrigated. I apologize to my foot that is having a strong inflammatory response to the surgical trauma and that tomorrow, I am allowing and inflicting more trauma with another surgery....yet it is in the interest of clearing up anything that may be amiss. I apologize for ways I have not listened to my body and overworked it, underslept and underfed it, and overall undernurtured it. In the past 5 weeks, I took the rare opportunity to reread Stephen and Ondrea's work starting with Gradual Awakening and embracing a few meditations a day to work on unfinished business, as Ondrea notes, before becoming sick. I apologize to my foot - yet perhaps I am fortunate to take the work seriously again as I did in the late 1980's to 'complete'. I did work the process then, went to two of Stephen and Ondrea's retreats and worked with grief, meditation, lovingkindness and healing tapes for 7 years. Now, it is like starting anew and I am seeing new blessings. What a blessing you all are to witness, to share and to guide me in apology. I apology to all of you for not being a clearing in the world - and for not forgiving those who hurt me - and living in self-pity most of my life. Amen and may we all be free from suffering.

I apologize to myself for betraying my core values and beliefs - for saying one thing and doing another - for trying to present an image to the world that sugar coats the real me. I realize the toll this has taken on my soul and explains much of the self-loathing I feel on a daily basis. There is a Catch-22 at play here: in the deep sense of unworthiness defining me... in my inability to extend grace and forgiveness to myself, which is projected as judgment and criticism to others. Self-loathing perpetuates when I live an inauthentic life. I must accept that I am hopelessly flawed human spinning its wheels in the mud and seek forgiveness. I need to clarify my values and correct what is wrong. May I find the strength and grace to be able to walk this path and live in the light of truth.

I am so sorry for the anger I have directed at and held towards you the Mother of my birth. It was my fear. I am so sorry for the cruel acts, harsh words, lack of connection, loss of hope, and all the missed opportunities for me to understand you and for us to enjoy each other. These were my fear. I am sorry for the ways I left you feeling unloved by me over the years. I walked away in fear. I am sorry for our birthing struggle and the way I let the stain of that process define me and hurt you. I was my fear. I am so sorry for the wounding of you done by me in a fearful energy of confusion. I have been such fear. I am sorry and I want you now to know that I love you so. May this love consume my fear. May this love surround you. May this love be all that exists between us.

I apologize to my beautiful daughter who died. Our last words were in anger. I am sorry that I did not have the patience to deal with your mental illness better than I did. I am sorry that you suffered so much and that I couldn't figure out how to help you better. I miss you. I wish I had more chances to help you but we ran out of time.

that this that I call I might never live up to all that beckons, that offers, that has been gifted (this rejects self-mercy) that this that I call I is sunk in harshness, drowning in bitterness, alone (this rejects self-mercy) that this that I call I refuses touch, connection, compassion, joy that this that I call I refuses to take within (see that it is already there) the oneness, the wholeness, the pattern before language (this rejects self-mercy) that I fume and rail against apology (this rejects self-mercy) that there is a great sea of anger, my paper boat far out in it that I hide without courage, that I make myself so visible and overbearing without fear that this that I call I reject self-mercy, refuse to dive into the offered heart of love

I apologise, Sweetheart, for closing down towards you, for being angry with you, for being irritable with you, for saying unkind things, for closing my heart. For being so confused. It is painful. I apologise for allowing this to happen in our relationship. I am sorry. Please forgive me. May I be kind, compassionate and loving. May our hearts be open to one another and to all beings.

I am so sorry and ashamed for what i did to all those people i care about.I stealed and cheated and took advantage of them.I used their money and never payed back.I knew what i was doing and did it anyway.They do not know i was lying because i invented good lies and now i am here,ashamed and not knowing how to cure it all.Sorry.

THANK YOU FOR LISTENING AND SENDING US ALL YOUR ENERGY. I NEED A LOT HELP BECAUSE I FIND IT HARD IT FORGIVE MYSELF,BUT TRYING EVERY DAY. DO YOU DO THIS EVERYDAY ? LOVE JAMES

I am sorry for not having followed my heart when I first met you. I felt your admiration of me and knew that I could help you find your light, if only.....but 6 years later I realized that I was dying from being needed so badly by you. I am exhaused with your neediness of me. I am sorry that I allowed this to go on so long when I was never in "right relationship" with you, and could not draw a healthy boundary. I'm sorry that I let my fear of hurting you march me down this endlessly depressing road which culminated in my abrupt exit from the relationship. I'm sorry that we never cultivated communication that was honest and respectful in order to even address the underlying truth that we both knew was there. I'm sorry that you are wounded by my leaving, and I'm sorry that I feel responsible for your pain, when I understand that it really is not mine. I pray that we both find our faults in this and heal them. May you be free from suffering. May I be free from suffering. May we both learn to deeply deeply love ourselves enough that this pattern ceases to exist. Thank you Ondrea for reading this. Many Blessings on your lives together.

The love and compassion on your video made me cry. Cry with the recognition of how little of that compassion i have given to myself. I would like to apologise to myself for treating myself so harshly and judgementally over a lifetime's chronic illness. I would also like to apologise to my mother for speaking of her with judgement when she did the best she could. Thank you for being there. With love melissa

I am sorry to all the people I hurt. I am so sorry. I realize now that every human being should be treated with the utmost kindness and compassion, which is something I knew once and somehow forgot in the midst of all the pain. I am sorry that I did things that I knew in my heart were wrong. I am sorry that I did not treat myself with self love and did not get out of situations that were abusive when I should have. I am sorry that I believed delusions for so long. I am sorry I cursed. I am sorry that I drank. I am sorry that I did drugs. I am sorry that I worked jobs that were bad for me. I am sorry that that I believed lies about myself. I am sorry that I got my family into trouble, that I threatened my brother, that I went too far with roughhousing when my brother and I were kids and it probably hurt him psychologically. I am sorry for the litter of kittens that I couldn't save even though I tried. I am sorry that I did not treat my hamsters with enough care. I am sorry that somewhere along the line I became convinced that it was okay to hurt people because they hurt me- I know it's not. I am sorry that I stopped trying to see the best in people for a while. I am so sorry to myself that I did not love myself enough to see that I am a beautiful person too and worthy of my self respect, and that I let it get this far. I am sorry for the times I held unforgiveness in my heart. I am sorry to my best friend that I never told her about my feelings for her because I didn't want to lose her. I am sorry I took medications that I knew would hurt me in an attempt to make me more socially acceptable and numb my true feelings. I am sorry that I did not stand up more for what I knew to be true. I am sorry to my Creator that I have failed Her many times and I know She still has not failed me. I am sorry that I did not boldly show my love for mother Earth enough. I am sorry that I cared too much what other people thought of me to the point where I did not live my life the way I wanted to, do the things I aspired to do, dare to write my stories and my poetry without caring what other people thought of it, show as much compassion to my enemies as my friends. I am sorry that I hurt my boyfriend. I am sorry I believed in religious propaganda and false prophecies. I am sorry I tried to kill myself. I am sorry I thought it was wrong to feel strong feelings. I am so sorry for all of it that I have decided to change my life for the better and treat myself and my Mother with respect and compassion no matter what anyone may think about that. Thank you all who loved me anyway...Thank you all who did not love me because you showed me that the truth prevails despite anyone else's opinion, that the truth is even more beautiful when people lie because it showed me that adversity has no power over the truth, that I have the courage within myself to face anything that I need to face. Thank you.