I want to apologize to myself for indulging in Internet porn for the last 20 years as a way of medicating and soothing my anxiety, insecurity and pain. It took me away from myself and diminished my capacity to be present for myself and others. Porn also conditioned me to objectify women and, in the process, to close my heart to the very women that I wanted to get close to! By indulging in porn, I avoided the necessary healing of which the anxiety and insecurity were symptoms. I'm sorry that I abandoned myself and chose the path of least resistance?.again and again. I'm especially sorry that I compromised my word over and over after making many empty promises to stop. I want to forgive my father, who carelessly hid his porn, setting me on a lifelong struggle of addiction and recovery. Porn was our shared secret. As far as I know, he wasn't aware of my porn usage. He died when I was in my late 20s before we had an opportunity for a discussion about it. I want to forgive myself for grieving for the loss of his porn before I grieved his death. (In the last good week or so before he died he got rid of it all). I forgive you Dad. And I forgive myself.

I seek forgiveness for my deceitfulness in my relationship with a significant person in my life. I seek pardon for my lack of respect and reverence. I ask for mercy that I may let go of the patterns that underlie this behaviour - the need to be liked, the fear of rejection, the stress about whether I am acceptable or not in the eyes of others. May loving-kindness towards these wounds pour forth in my heart.May I feel unconditional love towards both the beautiful flowers and the forlorn weeds. May I be happy in my own skin, warts and all. May the healing light of love touch us all.

I am sorry for the harshly negative statements made everyday out of sheer frustration and loss. I am sorry for hurting myself with unkind words toward myself. May I forgive myself for all the disappointments and sorrows.

I am sorry to myself for all of the loneliness, burden, grief and chronic frustration. I can't seem to get so many emotional needs met. I pray for the presence of mercy and compassion, which does not come easily in the midst of intense suffering.

I apologize to myself for hurting myself with self-criticism and "I'm not good enoughs". I am sorry that I have held in anger for years and for putting anger out into the world, as well. I am sorry for numbing out and hurting myself with food--for overeating and eating less mindfully than I would like. For not being perfect. I am sorry that I was sexually abused at age 7, but I won't keep blaming myself for that and I am sorry that I ever did. I release and forgive myself, my body, and this man, for all these things, with loving compassion.

I am sorry for losing faith in my son's ability to have a creative, healthy and loving life. I apologize for my lack of courage in speaking truth to him, and for not even being sure in my own heart what that is. I apologize for being unsure what I can do for him. Though I am now worried less about enabling and more comfortable with providing him with some basic things, reaching this point has been painful. I am so sorry for how I allow his situation to dominate my thoughts and my life, at the same time I pray to be shown any way I could help. I love my son. I apologize for growing more uncomfortable with him when I know he needs love and acceptance. I pray for help in giving him that. I am so sorry, I pray for cosmic forgiveness and for self forgiveness for anything I did to contribute to his difficulties.

I am sorry that I am in confusion again in my primary relationship and am causing such pain in myself and other.

I wish I could have been stronger in my early twenties when the chest pain began. It has become a cardiovascular disease that is still not diagnosed and I live in pain almost everyday. I wish I could be more disciplined and wake up early everyday, meditate, exercise, pray, eat well--but I often feel weak and unfocused. I'm sorry I'm not doing more to try to heal this difficult condition, that causes suffering for myself and others. I'm sorry that I'm not a spiritual superman right now. I hope to be one, one day. Thank you and blessings to all beings.

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I apologize for losing faith in you. You were in pain and I couldn't move closer. It frightened me to see you so fragile, so I remained distant, fearing for my own feelings, my idealized picture of you. I should have reached out, and I knew it. But I lacked the strength to connect while you were in so much pain. Now it is too late to tell you how much I cared and how much I appreciated you. Please forgive me.

I am sorry that I have to cancel my subscription, strictly due to a temporary financial situation. We are having to manage a very tight budget, and it looks like it will get worse before it gets better. I really appreciate all that you guys have done to lessen the suffering of the world and I hope to come back again sometime--take care, much love.

I'm sorry that I can't seem to support myself emotionally during chronic emotional hardship. I can't seem to lessen the envy, bitterness, grief. I am sorry to myself for crying alone and forgetting to call upon friends and wise teachers, even if just in spirit.

I apologize to myself for the many years of harshness and unkindness, for demanding for perfection, and seeing only what is lacking and not good enough in me, for not appreciating my effort and struggles, for pushing and pushing myself, ignoring my own needs, vulnerabilities and feelings as a human being, for not listening to the child in me, not seeing her beauty, her purity, her innocence...I hope that she will forgive me...I hope that we will be friends, that I shall love her as she is and take good care of her...

I apologize for the lack of mercy and compassion I have toward myself so much (most) of the time. There has been so much suffering, and this suffering has been met by constant shame and self judgment. Thank you Ondrea, for your wisdom and understanding. Love, Lisa

I am afraid but am trying to apologize to life, the universe & myself for struggling through life. I have been confused, fearful, restless & struggling to tolerate existing. I've spun my wheels & tried to get a footing, keep the water from rising above my nose. I apologize for being full of fear, anger, hate, anxiety, resentment, envy, confusion, resistance. I'm sorry that I failed at doing anything to make things better for anyone. My pain way outweighed my ability to change, to do anything skillful. I apologize that my life seems to have been an exhausting waste. May all beings be free of suffering. May all beings be at peace.

I apologize for not being able to help you feel secure and grounded in our relationship. You have had a terrible mental health crisis with delusions and paranoia. How scary for you, how terribly unfair that your mind became so unbalanced. I'm sorry for any part I have played in this breakdown. May you be blessed with peace, and love and stability in the coming months. I love you very much.

I apologize for coming between you and your wife; for breaking up your marriage; for living with you in hopes of marriage and then abruptly leaving you with no intention of ever seeing you again. I hate my past actions; I was coming from total selfishness and I need to forgive myself and ask too for your forgiveness. I pray that you life is filled now with real love. We will never see each other again and so I hope it is not too late for this sincere apology.

I apologize for falling in love with your partner and possibly playing the part in your break up with him. I apologize for lusting after him, for fantasizing about him and for wanting to be in a romantic relationship with him. I apologize for backbiting and being hypocritical with you.

I'm sorry that I could not save your life. I'm sorry that I couldn't be with you more in the last few months of your life. I'm sorry that I didn't push you more to save your own life. I'm sorry that I took space from you in your time of need. I'm sorry that I didn't see you once more before you died. I'm sorry that I didn't live with you and take care of you in the last few months. I'm sorry that I'm letting other people's interpretations of who you were get in the way of who I know you truly were/are. I'm sorry that I didn't always acknowledge how much pain you were going through and how brave you were. I'm sorry that I didn't talk to you more openly about your dying. I'm sorry that I didn't tell you even more that I am proud of you. I am proud of you. I trust you. I support you. I'm grateful to you always for teaching me about love and opening my heart. I love you so much. I love you so much I can't believe it. I love you forever. Thank you for coming to me in dreams. I see you around me and I know that we're still in love together.

I sincerely apologize to you, Bobby, our ex-neighbor. One day you, my brother and me decided to "run away from home" to downtown when I was 10. We played in the park then ate shop-lifted food. Our Dad found us, drove home, and for once did not strike us or yell. He told us he blamed you, that you were a delinquent kid who made us do these bad things. As you know, it was my idea to run away! I didn't own up to the truth because it got us out of trouble. We were banned from playing at your house from then on. True, you were from a broken home and acted up a lot, but you were nice to us. It turns out you had very tough teenage years and ended up committing suicide after high school. I'm sorry for your pain in life and hope you are at peace now.