I am so deeply sorry to my most beloved Nanna. When she was lying in the hospital bed, likely to die, I went to see her, hoping to give her comfort. My father was already there and when I saw him I felt so bereft, he and I had so much pain between us and I had only just broken up with a lover and was carrying pain. I left my most beloved Nanna there without my comfort and love. She died without my presence. I am so deeply sorry Nanna. I love you so deeply, thank you for all the love you gave to me for so long. We will be together again, I know. Please forgive me God.
I am deeply sorry to myself for not loving me. I am good and true and now I will be loving to myself and to all others as best I possibly can be. Thank you me.
I want to apologize to myself and to two unborn embryos that I aborted. I was not in a position to raise a child. I was careless with birth control, and I am very sorry for that. It is difficult to write this because my feelings have been frozen inside me for decades. I want to forgive myself, but I don't know if I can. This is, maybe, the first step. Thank you to whoever reads this.
When I was about 11 years old, I babysat for a sweet little girl. I somehow realized she didn't like to be frowned at; of course she was little and tuned into people's faces. One day I said to my friend, "Watch, I can make her cry." I don't know what my motivation was....showing off? But I frowned at her and she did start to cry. I want to apologize to her, to sweet little Jane, for making her cry that day. I am so sorry for that. I wish her every happiness and joy.
I apologize that I put pride ahead of your safety. It was my fault and you should not punish him for the decision that he made to keep my condition private. I own my faults and have learned what it caused between you two. I apologize.
I’m sorry to my body for all of the times I failed to nourish it. Thank you for everything.
I'm sorry for all the people I've judged, mostly just in thought but still very judgemental thoughts. I'm sorry for judging my wife for not being more spiritual and demanding her to be someway when I was really just afraid of the thought that we might just not be a good match. I am sorry that I will have to leave you my wife since I have to follow my heart. I wish you only love
I’m sorry to my good body for all the things I’ve done to try to change you. I’m sorry to my good heart for not listening to your wisdom. I’m sorry to my good mind who was only thinking what it thought was right for me. I’m sorry to my good self, for denying, twisting, discounting, aggressivizing and not loving you with the open fullness your, my, human magnificence deserves. We have more time to go, it seems, and I promise to do my best to be gentle, grateful and loving with all of our days.
I apologize to the Creator for the horrendous destruction the human race has wrought on this magnificent creation because of greed, selfishness and all unconscious behavior.
I am sorry to my deceased husband, for any wrong or terrible offense I may have done or said against you. You didn’t deserve anything but love. I’m sorry to my beautiful children, for not being a better mother. The things I did, I always thought I was doing them to help you children have a good life. I’m sorry I didn’t realize I was destroying you both and causing life long damages to your mental health. I’m sorry to my parents for being such a worry to you. I always felt like a burden. I’m sorry to my sisters for always being such a cry baby and always needing you to rescue me. And finally I’m sorry to myself for not being true to myself, for allowing myself to be abused, for allowing others to use me, for not standing up for what I truly believe, for not reporting rape by a teacher, for not telling the truth, for committing adultery as a way to feel loved, for not asking for help, for not seeing the signs that he was cheating, for making so many bad choices when it came to raising my children in an alcoholic environment and for continuing to make bad choices even when I’m trying to be the best person I can. I am sorry for anything I may have done to hurt my friends and family, for any shame I may have caused them. And finally I’m sorry for not just being me and saying what I really wanted to say all those years. I’m sorry that my husband went before me and I’m sorry for my all my failures as a mother, wife, daughter, sister and friend.
I am sorry that I may have to leave my husband. He's a good man, but I'm falling out of love. I'm sorry that another man caught my interest while I was being neglected in my marriage. I never cheated, but I thought about it. I'm sorry I want more. I'm sorry I want to find peace. I'm sorry my children won't have the ideal upbringing we aimed for. I'm sorry for choosing me .
I deeply apologize for sexually abusing her for a minute when I was 11 or 12 and she was 4 or 5. I was clueless and frustrated with hormones raging and I stopped as soon as she protested. And it was an awful thing to do. I'm sorry, sister!
I apologize to my recently deceased brother, who I love and miss so much, that I didn't visit you as often as perhaps I could have...I made the mistake of thinking we had more time. But it wasn't meant to be.
I apologize to my parents and grandparents for being so self-absorbed as a kid and therefore oblivious to their needs, suffering, emotional states.
I want to apologize o my sons. For Not been strong enough to handle things together when my oldest son was diagnosed with anxiety and panic attacks. I lost my self and make choice that were not the best for all us. I want to apologize to my beautiful soul who took a lot of pain and my body that suffered so much hate. Didn’t care about it I did what I felt it was normal to feel some form of control out all The turn oil that was inside of me. For yers hiding my child abuse and parents who never care. A immigrant woman with so much on her shoulders. I apologize to my children and to my self for not loving us enough to let other people bring us down.
I am so sorry for wanting and needing to understand why I lost both children. One 11 and a half years ago to a taking of life here and one to enormous pain a year and a half ago. They are together I know and doing amazing planetary and Interdimensional work. Both light beings when they were here and now without their casing. I am so “into“ dispelling the darkness here now, and it is none of my business. For this I am sorry.
I am deeply sorry for the hurt that I caused in those who worked for me…. For expecting perfection, for setting unrealistic standards, and causing suffering in the process. I am deeply sorry to myself for expecting so much of myself and not taking care of this body when it needed relaxation and rest. I am deeply sorry for not making it to my grandma’s funeral, and am deeply thankful that she came to say good bye in my dreams. I am deeply sorry for the negative things I said in my life about other people…. Forgive me because I did not know any better way to deal with my own challenges and stress. I am deeply sorry for the judgments I made of other people, without really understanding them.
Bullied as a kid both at school and at home, I ended up with a lot of anger. I took that anger out mostly on relative strangers. I was very lucky that I never injured anyone physically as I acted out my road rage. But I hurt many people emotionally. I scared them. I enraged them. I was awful. Eventually I overcame my tendency to road rage, but I never overcame being abusive to strangers, often over the phone, when I felt they weren't listening or didn't care or couldn't help me or were incompetent. All of those things triggered me and I was mean. There were periods in my life where it didn't happen very often and then during periods of greater stress/loss/fear, I was too often harsh, angry, even sadistic in what I said to others when triggered. I cannot begin to convey the burden of regret I feel for these instances where I acted so badly, where I hurt others, stole from them their equilibrium, their good mood, their sense of adequacy, their sense of self worth...I live with this regret everyday and yet, since menopause, I find it harder and harder to control my anger. It's right there ready to pounce. I'm not angry all the time. I don't lash out without a trigger, but I have too many triggers. I thought I loved myself, had worked hard over the years to learn to love myself. I have been resilient after painful losses, even trauma. But now it feels like my heart has closed up, shrunk, or been insulated. I can't feel joy or awe or adoration or love like I used to, but the anger and rage are right there. I'm in a battle with myself, between my ego and my soul, to overcome the judgment I use to condemn overs, the anger and rage I use to hurt them and I judgment and shame I use to hate myself for it. I'm so sorry to each person I have harmed! I would take it back if I could. In writing this it occurs to me to begin a practice of sending loving-kindness to all those I have hurt. I am so sorry for what I took from you, for what I said to you, for how I made you feel. I ended up being a bully after hating bullies! I'm so sorry. I carry the weight of what I have done. I pray for forgiveness, self-forgiveness, so that I can break the cycle and end the pattern. I wish I could name you all, everyone individually -- I'm sorry I can't -- but please know it was my fault, you didn't deserve to be treated that way, and I am so sorry!
I am sorry grandma that I didn't realize how much you loved me and cared for me. And that I did never thank your for that. I think of you often and I regret that I was not there for you more when you needed support.
I am sorry that I have demanded perfection of myself and others.