I’m sorry to my body for all of the times I failed to nourish it. Thank you for everything.
I'm sorry for all the people I've judged, mostly just in thought but still very judgemental thoughts. I'm sorry for judging my wife for not being more spiritual and demanding her to be someway when I was really just afraid of the thought that we might just not be a good match. I am sorry that I will have to leave you my wife since I have to follow my heart. I wish you only love
I’m sorry to my good body for all the things I’ve done to try to change you. I’m sorry to my good heart for not listening to your wisdom. I’m sorry to my good mind who was only thinking what it thought was right for me. I’m sorry to my good self, for denying, twisting, discounting, aggressivizing and not loving you with the open fullness your, my, human magnificence deserves. We have more time to go, it seems, and I promise to do my best to be gentle, grateful and loving with all of our days.
I apologize to the Creator for the horrendous destruction the human race has wrought on this magnificent creation because of greed, selfishness and all unconscious behavior.
I am sorry to my deceased husband, for any wrong or terrible offense I may have done or said against you. You didn’t deserve anything but love. I’m sorry to my beautiful children, for not being a better mother. The things I did, I always thought I was doing them to help you children have a good life. I’m sorry I didn’t realize I was destroying you both and causing life long damages to your mental health. I’m sorry to my parents for being such a worry to you. I always felt like a burden. I’m sorry to my sisters for always being such a cry baby and always needing you to rescue me. And finally I’m sorry to myself for not being true to myself, for allowing myself to be abused, for allowing others to use me, for not standing up for what I truly believe, for not reporting rape by a teacher, for not telling the truth, for committing adultery as a way to feel loved, for not asking for help, for not seeing the signs that he was cheating, for making so many bad choices when it came to raising my children in an alcoholic environment and for continuing to make bad choices even when I’m trying to be the best person I can. I am sorry for anything I may have done to hurt my friends and family, for any shame I may have caused them. And finally I’m sorry for not just being me and saying what I really wanted to say all those years. I’m sorry that my husband went before me and I’m sorry for my all my failures as a mother, wife, daughter, sister and friend.
I am sorry that I may have to leave my husband. He's a good man, but I'm falling out of love. I'm sorry that another man caught my interest while I was being neglected in my marriage. I never cheated, but I thought about it. I'm sorry I want more. I'm sorry I want to find peace. I'm sorry my children won't have the ideal upbringing we aimed for. I'm sorry for choosing me .
I deeply apologize for sexually abusing her for a minute when I was 11 or 12 and she was 4 or 5. I was clueless and frustrated with hormones raging and I stopped as soon as she protested. And it was an awful thing to do. I'm sorry, sister!
I apologize to my recently deceased brother, who I love and miss so much, that I didn't visit you as often as perhaps I could have...I made the mistake of thinking we had more time. But it wasn't meant to be.
I apologize to my parents and grandparents for being so self-absorbed as a kid and therefore oblivious to their needs, suffering, emotional states.
I want to apologize o my sons. For Not been strong enough to handle things together when my oldest son was diagnosed with anxiety and panic attacks. I lost my self and make choice that were not the best for all us. I want to apologize to my beautiful soul who took a lot of pain and my body that suffered so much hate. Didn’t care about it I did what I felt it was normal to feel some form of control out all The turn oil that was inside of me. For yers hiding my child abuse and parents who never care. A immigrant woman with so much on her shoulders. I apologize to my children and to my self for not loving us enough to let other people bring us down.
I am so sorry for wanting and needing to understand why I lost both children. One 11 and a half years ago to a taking of life here and one to enormous pain a year and a half ago. They are together I know and doing amazing planetary and Interdimensional work. Both light beings when they were here and now without their casing. I am so “into“ dispelling the darkness here now, and it is none of my business. For this I am sorry.
I am deeply sorry for the hurt that I caused in those who worked for me…. For expecting perfection, for setting unrealistic standards, and causing suffering in the process. I am deeply sorry to myself for expecting so much of myself and not taking care of this body when it needed relaxation and rest. I am deeply sorry for not making it to my grandma’s funeral, and am deeply thankful that she came to say good bye in my dreams. I am deeply sorry for the negative things I said in my life about other people…. Forgive me because I did not know any better way to deal with my own challenges and stress. I am deeply sorry for the judgments I made of other people, without really understanding them.
Bullied as a kid both at school and at home, I ended up with a lot of anger. I took that anger out mostly on relative strangers. I was very lucky that I never injured anyone physically as I acted out my road rage. But I hurt many people emotionally. I scared them. I enraged them. I was awful. Eventually I overcame my tendency to road rage, but I never overcame being abusive to strangers, often over the phone, when I felt they weren't listening or didn't care or couldn't help me or were incompetent. All of those things triggered me and I was mean. There were periods in my life where it didn't happen very often and then during periods of greater stress/loss/fear, I was too often harsh, angry, even sadistic in what I said to others when triggered. I cannot begin to convey the burden of regret I feel for these instances where I acted so badly, where I hurt others, stole from them their equilibrium, their good mood, their sense of adequacy, their sense of self worth...I live with this regret everyday and yet, since menopause, I find it harder and harder to control my anger. It's right there ready to pounce. I'm not angry all the time. I don't lash out without a trigger, but I have too many triggers. I thought I loved myself, had worked hard over the years to learn to love myself. I have been resilient after painful losses, even trauma. But now it feels like my heart has closed up, shrunk, or been insulated. I can't feel joy or awe or adoration or love like I used to, but the anger and rage are right there. I'm in a battle with myself, between my ego and my soul, to overcome the judgment I use to condemn overs, the anger and rage I use to hurt them and I judgment and shame I use to hate myself for it. I'm so sorry to each person I have harmed! I would take it back if I could. In writing this it occurs to me to begin a practice of sending loving-kindness to all those I have hurt. I am so sorry for what I took from you, for what I said to you, for how I made you feel. I ended up being a bully after hating bullies! I'm so sorry. I carry the weight of what I have done. I pray for forgiveness, self-forgiveness, so that I can break the cycle and end the pattern. I wish I could name you all, everyone individually -- I'm sorry I can't -- but please know it was my fault, you didn't deserve to be treated that way, and I am so sorry!
I am sorry grandma that I didn't realize how much you loved me and cared for me. And that I did never thank your for that. I think of you often and I regret that I was not there for you more when you needed support.
I am sorry that I have demanded perfection of myself and others.
I am sorry it has taken me 4 years, and I still have not been able to contact you. I needed your support in my grief, and while I know I did not say things perfectly, I did not deserve your shaming email. Even though I know who you truly are, I understand your reaction, and I forgive you, I am having a hard time speaking my truth and standing up for me. This is why I cannot contact you. I want to apologize, explain, and stand up for what I need too (when I usually just apologize and take responsibility for it all). I am sorry I have not been able to tell my dad that I can no longer listen to him bad mouth my mom. I feel like my inability to speak my truth again, it somehow condoning his behavior and betraying my mom. I am sorry for when I was a child, and I could not speak my truth - and stood by my friend graffitiing racial slurs. Even after all my years work in racial justice, this still brings about full guilt and regret. I am sorry for how my grief of childlessness and singleness (post divorce) has pushed away so many people I love. I am sorry for how much time and energy I have spent in grief and jealousy, and yearning for ease, rather than enjoying what is. I am sorry for not trusting God, Great Spirit, Universe, Life, because I have had so much loss and trauma in one lifetime. I am sorry I couldn’t value myself enough that I stayed with an ex boyfriend, a narcissist, and couldn’t see it more clearly. I forgive myself for becoming reactive and at times enraged when in this relationship. I am sorry for the ways my mother triggers me, so profoundly. How deeply reactive I can get when feeling unseen and unheard by her. I know she does not have the ability to go there, yet I want it anyway. I am sorry to my brother, who has had a really hard life, that I cannot be more of a support to you, because of the depth of my wounds from you. I want you to have that support, even if I cannot give it to you. I am sorry to my ex-husband for over relying on you, for comfort, connection, and security. I am beyond grateful for your support - and feel like I put too much pressure on you. I am sorry to my niece and her husband who I cried when they announced their pregnancy. While I am thrilled to death for y’all, I still grieve for my own disenfranchised loss - and was not in the right space to hear it well that day. I felt so guilty when the baby didn’t make it - and I have prayed and prayed and wished and hoped for great healing for you - even when I cannot be part of it like I wished I could.
I am so very sorry to myself for having internalized the abuse and trauma my alcoholic father inflicted on me as an infant and childhood. I interpreted his abuse and rejection as a reflection on me. I carried his energy as a rejection of myself and believed myself to literally be a "mistake". . . and that I wasn't even supposed to be on the planet. At 58 I'm finally beginning to realize, understand and own the truth that I am inherently good. And, that the experience I went through as a child can be used to help others who feel "less than" on this planet for whatever reason. I apologize to myself for allowing myself to live from a place of anger, fear, sadness, shame and guilt. These feelings I obeyed relentlessly. As a result, I have many regrets in my life for not having truly lived. That said, I forgive myself for living this way all these years as well. It is time now to not only extend this apology to myself, but to accept it at the core of my very being. I want to internalize the apology (and self-love) I have for myself so that it becomes rooted in my very DNA. I pray for the grace to live the rest of my life in a role of self-love, compassion and acceptance. I also pray that I use all my experiences I've had in my life to be of service to others. In particular, I will be a "goodness sherpa" that helps individuals find the inherent goodness that truly resides in them. . . in each of us. Thank You for listening to me. Thank You for this site!
I am deeply sorry for treating my small brother the way I did in childtime. I judged him for his interests, his behaviour, for him being as he was. Only because my mind was so conditioned. He was suffering from so much lack of love and I took part in it. I am so painful sorry for this kind of lack of love which was so deeply hurting a beautiful child. I wish you so much grace and strength and god's blessing for healing. May you be filled with love for finding your way and being your beautiful soul
I am sorry for treating my friends in teenager time so bad. I wanted them close and then I pushed them away.
I am sorry Kelly for having abandoned you on your death bed.