Apologies
We have had this project in mind for years. As we look at it now, it seems to be a very good idea as a means for tilting the shared heart and letting it pour into the ocean of compassion. If you were told you were completely forgiven for everything you have ever done, what is it in the heart that rejects that self mercy? Treasure Yourselves
Love, Ondrea & Stephen
June 14, 2013 10:39 am
Compassion: 4
I apologize to my partner for saying mean things. I resolve to never do that again.
June 9, 2013 01:52 pm
Compassion: 13
I apologize to Dave who is no longer on this earth that I was untruthful or I lied to him in our relationship.
June 7, 2013 11:48 am
Compassion: 18
I apologize to E for my unskillful communication and lack of communication that I know stimulated deep pain in you. I was angry and frightened and didn't know how to deal with my feelings other than to judge and blame you. I'm so sad that we are no longer friends and that our parting was so painful. I apologize for being jealous of your partner, for ignoring him and treating him unkindly. I wish I'd known how to be with my own disappointment and sadness in a different way than making you wrong.
June 4, 2013 01:09 pm
Compassion: 17
I apologise to Daniela, for hurting you during primary school. Despite the fact that I got bullied myself not too long ago, I still hurt you just for the sake of 'fitting in'. I'm sorry that I haven't been able to find you, so I can't apologise face-to-face. This plagues me so very much, but I hope you will be happy to know that I have never hurt anyone as I did you, and am trying extremely hard to better myself.
June 3, 2013 07:07 pm
Compassion: 24
I apologize to myself for not being able to find the mother in me. My home is in disarray, and I am beginning to understand that I am a compulsive hoarder--not simply a collector. I apologize to myself for times when I give in to a vortex of feelings of sadness, helplessness and hopelessness. I so want to change, to let go of the feeling of burden when cleaning and organizing my home. I apologize to myself that my feet seem made of lead. I apologize to myself if I ever make a link between the dirt in my home and who I am. I apologize to myself for not being able to find the mother in me. May there be willingness to arise. May new vision, new growth, spring from within and without. May strength to face what is difficult and lumbering in me arise as the road, also, begins to incline upward. The hill feels steep at times as I begin clearing away the stuff of this life. May there be courage as I untangle the nest of things I keep around me. May I, may we, rest in the Light that we are.
May 25, 2013 01:57 pm
Compassion: 24
I apologise to my father for not being with him in his last days and rejecting him as a teen. I feel compassion for the suffering of his life and his inability to express his love openly for me. I apologise to my spiritual leader for my resentment and anger toward him after 37 years of relationship. Rodney Collin said esoteric relationships must be human relationships. RB in his own pain, tries to give what love he can, many friends feel it. I don't. Many devotees claim his is beyond being human. It doesn't sound right if he still has to put one leg in his pants at a time to put them on. My resentment hurts him more than it does me. I apologise to the people who run the company I have given good service to for 11 years. They find me now intolerable because I have tried to use my intelligence and cleverness to serve their clients with highest possible intention despite their insistence on formulae I can't work with. I forgive you for firing me and have compassion for the tough road you must travel with such an angry owner and difficult business.
May 20, 2013 12:54 pm
Compassion: 22
I apologize for thinking I am right and you are wrong. I am sorry for putting myself above you and your religious Order. C, I am sorry I could not be more loving and accept you as your are. In my pain of feeling unloved, I often created more unlove. I am sorry I was not able to deal with my feeings and my choices, and went to being right and righteous. I ask you to forgive my pain and hurtful words, thoughts and actions that caused you more pain. I forgive myself for hurting myself with this too.
May 20, 2013 12:54 pm
Compassion: 30
I apologise for yelling at my nine year old daughter to get her shoes as she left the house. In the roar of anger and frustratio, she felt blamed and afraid and both our hearts became barriered. She lef the house for a sleepover alone and sad. i am sorry
May 20, 2013 12:53 pm
Compassion: 29
I apologize and forgive myself for allowing myself to slide into depression and believing I am a victim, that I am powerless over my life's circumstances. I forgive myself for ignoring my personal needs, for working so hard at my business that I have become out of balance, losing opportunities for laughter and fun and play, for resentment of my business and life's financial circumstances that put me in a position of resentment and anger. I forgive myself for feeling out of balance, mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually. I love myself and am grateful for being able to express myself in recognition of my desire to heal myself of these beliefs that have not served my greater and highest good.
May 17, 2013 03:40 pm
Compassion: 28
I apologize to myself to staying in a job, with a bad, narcissistic boss, who has caused me much unhappiness in the last 2 years. I apologize to myself for not listening to my gut and walking away out of fear. Jobs are hard to find but staying in one with a bad boss has seriously compromised my well-being in many ways. I did it out of fear. I forgive myself for staying in this pattern out of fear and I am not putting up with my boss's manipulations any more. I have the courage to leave now.
May 11, 2013 12:19 pm
Compassion: 31
Forgive Me For My Fear
May 7, 2013 01:46 pm
Compassion: 36
i apologize to my wife for judging her, not paying attention to her, not accepting her as she is, for trying to change her to who i thought she should be, for criticizing her as a way to soothe my own insecurities. i am moving towards forgiving myself for the many ways i fell short as a husband and a father. though i have no conscious thought of what you have done that i would forgive you for, i offer it unconditionally. you are a kind loving soul who deserved a better life free of the horrible abuse you suffered before we met. i hope you will find true happiness and a peaceful life
May 5, 2013 03:48 pm
Compassion: 33
I apologize for continually choosing my addictions over discomfort. Being willing to endure the discomfort (when I do it) makes me far more available to others: more honest, more compassionate. I would like to be more willing and to offer other beings and myself all that I am capable of. I ask for your prayers and metta in this endeavor. Thank you so much.
April 29, 2013 02:26 pm
Compassion: 36
I am sorry Laura, for any self guilt, self punishment that I am not good enough, messy, unwanted, abandoned, alone, ugly or whatever I am still carrying in me that makes me do things that are unloving to myself. I am sorry Laura, for having felt you have to work so hard to get anywhere, to be loved, accepted, pretty enough and have enough money. I am sorry for all you have had to suffer that was not necessary. I am sorry, love you Laura
April 29, 2013 11:24 am
Compassion: 44
I apologize to myself for believing that I am responsible for another's happiness. As a little girl growing up with a sick mother and an absent father, I was put in the role of my mother's caretaker. My job was to make her happy, and I also had to take care of my little sister. I was often told that because my mother had so many problems that I should not express anything that might add to them. I grew up to be very independent, but I have not allowed myself to be loved in the way that I deserve. I am changing finally, and I am almost sixty-two years old. Sad.
April 20, 2013 11:17 am
Compassion: 45
I apologize to myself for being so mean and hard on myself and expecting from myself what I would never expect from others. I apologize to myself for the intense anxiety I create which results in terror and effects my ability to relate to others because I tell myself they judge me harshly - when it is I who judges me so harshly. I forgive myself for the constant judging, criticizing, fault finding and shame for who I am. I look back at my childhood and I don't even know how it started or what I did.......yet I carry it with me still. I know I can create the possibility of a happy life and leaving this harsh critic in the past. And...I have to choose to do so - which would be an act of love.
April 20, 2013 11:06 am
Compassion: 46
I apologize to my mum who died 7 years ago. Due to my clinical depression during my teenage years (it began when I was 13, my parents were filing for divorce at the time) I was not able to appreciate her fully, I completely shut her out of my life most of the time, and I even gained pleasure from torturing her sometimes, by little demonstrations of my self-destructiveness or making her feel guilty in some other way. When I was 16 (after having refused to attend school for ongoing 6 months), my parents forced me to begin stationary treatment, for which I hated them both. After a couple of weeks I was feeling a bit more at ease with my situation at the clinic, it was almost like I had no choice but waking up (I see that now). During that slow process of awakening, my mum died in a car accident, as she was on her way to my younger brother. I am deeply sorry for causing her so much pain during those years. I regret that the realization came to late to tell her this in person, though I am aware that it is not my fault because I did not know any better at the time.
April 18, 2013 01:30 pm
Compassion: 39
I apologize to myself and others for telling the truth without kindness. Truth is important but without kindness it is often cruel. I apologize to myself for those relationships I have lost, and to those who were not helped by the truth, because it hurt too much. May i always be truthfully kind, and kindly truthful. May i be loving and funny and truthful and kind. May i be actively spiritual and humbly grateful. May i share my gifts without expectation, knowing they are their own beingness and meant to be what they are for myself and others. Thank you Ondrea and Stephen, may your work continue for as long as we need it. Love, Bernadene
April 17, 2013 09:42 pm
Compassion: 40
I'm sorry to my parents for my habits of self-destruction, especially while living in your home.
April 15, 2013 09:45 am
Compassion: 47
My apologies to my parents for burdening you both with my long standing emotional difficulties. Your softness, compassion, light heartedness, and sincerity seems to open me up- and the pain pours out. I pray for deeper acceptance of life's losses, and more peace for all of us.